Why am I still getting negative messages from my dad?
Also, I got the idea Ellen with others would be able to just like in what you'd call a show off way but not being like mean @ that term though it seems like it in this crowd .. that I was walking around with confidence tonight, like I was someone. Maybe not, that sounds stupid, too. Why are people onto me for shit like that? LOL?
I'm concerned @ the self-centeredness of my dad's like attacking me like he used to seem to threaten, like he'd follow me and make sure to make me feel bad. If I told my therapist, then what? You know? Like, I know my mom did that. Like, do little things to annoy me. I don't want them that close to me. I don't mean necessarily never, but this is sappy and sucks. It's not how I am. I'm not a pig on the floor.