Well

Of course you know what I mean @ Nell Burton, don't mean the person.  :|

Problema

I heard another threat from my dad like he'd change.  What is this?  He's just a machine that keeps going and doesn't stop.  He's so sure he's okay.  He goes to a group .. oh the door was opened and I had to close it.  My mom usually closes it and it's almost midnight.  Sounds like they both were out there.  I heard ice then the microwave.  What's that?  He seemed to be thinking @ Ellen DeGeneres before.  He's also thinking @ me, though.  Stupid Nell Burton.

Anything else?

Because my dad always supported my dreams.  I don't like my parents treating me like shit, making me fat in sneaky ways, not being any help in ways.

Problema

My dad isn't supposed to be involved in my life like that.. whattaya mean?  I mean how he thinks something stupid like that.  He needs to get his head in bed.  This is no home, my life.  Oh, so my money will come from Hollywood?  Too bad I can't fix up my life 1st.

Whatever.

I only have 1 answer.

Problema

"Why did you say it then?"  I WAS JUST POSTING IT.

Problema

My dad just said, "I don't want to -k***- her," when I was in my room checking to see if anyone else responded.. that's not funny.  It's not a good way to be stimulated.

Message Forum

Competition

I thought that there was actually an opportunity to find out like who can do what.  Like, a lotta people wanna see Ellen DeGeneres, like be in Finding Dory.  I saw a girl post that on Facebook when I searched Google.  My answer is that I don't see how she's most like someone who should meet her.  I'd need to know more.  I mean, maybe she deserves to like someone with a hard life.  I guess that's something else.  I mean, she seemed testy, as well, like @ someone who seems like should meet someone.  Why would anyone do that?  It's not gonna help, and if you like them I mean.  They probably believe that person is in their way, but there are lots of people in their way.  I am just trying to be honest, but now I'm gonna think @ it.  I can see she's sweet, but maybe she doesn't eat right and that's why she's overweight.  Ellen probably likes those young lesbians.  Well, not technically the smartest.  You know, I just got the idea that me saying I'm bi offended her becuase it was like I liked her.  Why does she tick like that, like that's her own animalistic reaction or tendency?  Probably not the best thing to say, but you know what I really mean.  You mean she has lots of feelings like that?  I don't.  That's okay, but I mean that's just like saying I'm Asian when I just act European but have a poor life.  That offended me, but I'll get over it soon or have.  Why do ya'll build like that, I mean okay bye have fun but I'm still here or whatever just hoping people do what helps them follow their dreams..  Like, I was talking @ meeting Ellen honestly for others.  It's an easy thing to talk @.

You're just jealous.

You wanted to live on the beach.  You think that since I am from Florida, and you think you're not I dunno .. that you need to rub in something like it ^happened^.  Hasn't this been heard of, before?

What

So some shit happens and you call me a nigger?

So, is something up?

Is there anything I can do, then I can think @ it?

Funny, it's probably something @ making me feel bad even though punishment for others for me wouldn't bother me as much, or what it used to be that I remember but not exactly what.  That kinda stuff happens to me, all the time.

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So, what?

That would mean essentially no more Ellen DeGeneres, but she does some nice things and is just like interesting otherwise.  Well, really nice.

Problema

I'm getting bombarded with mistreatment and it piles up!

Problema

Why did Ellen call me a 1950 generation while she knows her 1960 generation is spoiled brats?..  I don't want anything like that!  Well, did she?  No, wait, you just loaded my page all weird like yea it seems like that's what she was thinking, but I don't wanna hear it.

Problema

Why are people showing Ellen DeGeneres off to me?  Stop ruining my health.

Like, I'm doing stuff alone but get but in that I cursed @ Ellen online.  I don't really remember that but probably cursed at anyone who mistreated me for the N word thing but not like, "Stranger" is shit.  I don't really like doing that, so I don't seem to be doing it, anymore.  I sorta slinked out of my hatred.  I do still get upset.  What is this shit for?  I just heard a noise at my door, when I thought of shit.  You lookin' at me and makin' me ugly?  What?  I said shit because it's shit.  Like, my dad turned off the TV and eventually left, and usually I see his movies and think it's so cute and something I like.  What, .. I hope no one is really doing these things to me.  Just move on to your life.  I want someone to talk to and make me feel better.  All I have is what I post online.  I dunno I used to talk to my aunts @ it, which probably they are unavailable at the moment and I haven't talked to them in awhile.  I was just beaten with lots of messages, and things come to my mind, but it wasn't like @ Ellen DeGeneres.  What's yo problem?  I just said it WASN'T Ellen.  It wasn't someone.  It was just a thing, and it wasn't supposed to be something anyone does to me.

I hope it isn't a problem because all of what I say won't flow.  You must have a problem online, then.  Why don't you like comment and give me an idea for what I can post?  No one is like comfortable around me online.  Everyone was so mean to me, esp. after the N word thing.  The whole world became dreamless, like for the tweens.  You know, you don't like associate that with someone.  You associate it with the way you reacted to the N word thing.

Wut.

What's with all the puky messages my dad was dubbed to relay on myself?

Hurt

So, what is that something I did, too?  You know, a lotta people are like this.  Does that statement not sound defined enough?

Why you all think you're all that!?  Who the fuck cares if I was never online before!  Why the fuck you think we deserve computers?  I had a bad life @ school!  I was busy!

What about you?

So, you wanting a good looking person makes you a pervert like an Asian?

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and wow I just got totally put off, thanks a lot experiment for the stupid N word thing .. which doesn't matter like my heritage!!!!

Go into the real world and see what happens!  No one cares to hurt these people when they come on!  Just you wait!

WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY SMOOTH WORLD WHERE I AM THE 1 ON TOP OF WHAT I AM ON TOP OF

Problema

I guess someone or some people are making fun of me like someone like they made me up to be that I never was before I went online and just posted normally from what anyone can see is going to be ^involved in^ Finding Dory if I can!

Problema

I don't have it in me to fight back whatever mimicy brunette man is on TV now.

So, what?

Just wait until the next thing or "problem" I run into, which would be a problem for anyone else?  LOL!

Nothing to Talk To

I am just a normal person, but my friends have like twisted me as just some shy, dumb person.  Then, I had no friends, really.  I have the internet, and these people haven't messed up with me, now.  I wonder if I just bring back bad memories.

What's this?

People making fun of me for M. Ellen DeGeneres?  Nothing against her!  That's "what" they're doing.  This is just how I talk.  It's right.  I'm not making fun of Ellen DeGeneres!  You are!  She's not lame!

Problema

So, why are you so mad @ something?  I know it's just people being moody.  If someone is mean to me, I mean, what do you think?  I just fight back when people hurt me for the N word thing.  I don't go in and insult them.  I know some people have certain things I have to remember.  I don't wanna do this for m***********.  I never really cursed all growing up, but like I hear a black man on TV going crazy for his own greed.  It sounds like he's making fun of my dad.  I'm sorry, I'm not saying Ellen did this nor that she should have anything to do with what this is.  Why do you act like that?  I am the 1 who can suspect it's what it is because of the experiment.

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Update

I added a section to my website called "Plaques" and a new entry to the Updates.

Link.

What else?

Are you like saying I can't have a life, I couldn't even enjoy a minimum wage job in an okay factory?

I was always considered a good person before Tim Burton, so people better respect me.

Back for Now

Why, like, has my mom, who fed me, etc., I guess just think I'm not good enough because of my weight?

Also, I don't really see why I deserved to be hit, that was their idea.

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In Deed

Some people are treated better than they were before and are biding time actively.

Yay!

I just ordered this, a big Broadway fake book @ Amazon.com: link.

Problema

My mom made noises last night in the laundry room and made my heart have problems.  SHE was mean to me yesterday.

Also, I can't even feel sad in private.  These clicks of people watching me but me not deserving what everyone else does to them.  They're just acting like a bunch of little monkeys to me.  Since Johnny Depp and Tim Burton ya'll're retarded to listen and think things like this are suggestive, saying someone's acting like a monkey.  No one in particular, just what I mean..

In Thinking of Others

Like, don't impose my nose on you, but some people like they are who they are they aren't to impose like someone else.

Why gawk that I think I'm something in the class and then say I'm not for no apparent reason than maybe my race?  Just be mean to be funny and to have something to say?  And I'm in trouble?

Something Funny

Just did a Word Captcha and forgot what I was gonna say and had no muscle to think of it, again.

When you say something

Don't you mean what you say?  Why keep asking for another singing telegram?

Also

I sorta don't want to be categorized into some bin of constant unnecessary thought.  People are treating me like shit.  Everyone else is open to be vocal @ what they mean.

Something Weird

I see European minorities acting anti-Asian|Chinese|Oriental.  Isn't that something to the effect of my dream, though I care @ them?  I assume everyone thinks the same thing.

Pregunta

Did you ever find people monitoring you, like you can be rowdy unless it's you?

Something Embarrassing

I think people thought something was "if," but I knew what you could do to get what's available.

Pregunta

I know I want some things but will still live if I don't get them.  I mean, I'll try to get them.  I was just wondering why some people make a big scene of not getting what they want.  Isn't that not cool?

What should I have done?

People are going manic @ me as an infant not having a big nose.  Why do you think I did that?  I never did that when I was older, just sorta tied it up so it was a strong message.  ..which makes me wonder ~

Thought of Something

Something crossed my mind, as well..  I don't think it's as fun to be with some people when they are engaged in someone who's mean to you.  Like, they don't act right when it's @ you being attractive.

Also, what's with telling people everyone rounds up with their life as mean just to be sugary that they are the best?

Do you ever dig in and find that because of other people is why you're never right for who you are because they're all antsy, like racially or something?  I know I did what I was supposed to.  I guess other people come from mean parents, but I mean yea their parents probably just were jealous.

Height

over 5'2" some

Dream

I remember trying to get Coca Cola, but it was in a small river next to me, saw a tree thing sticking up, like a gator or turtle.

I was trying to m*********, again, seems something is stopping me up.  I just tried where no one was gonna be looking.  Once, in another room that seemed dark and sticky, too, and tree-induced.  Another, like us walking in a parade.

I am thinking of friends, maybe it was Curly Alicia from Twitter.

I think we had a tour guide, like the lady at the auditions from Disney.

It was just sorta dark, a bit happy.  I think we were getting breakfast.  I felt like an animal, like a big weasel, but technically all like, like I really was 1.