Wondering

I hope my old friends are okay.  I don't like the way they speak to me without speaking to me.

I hope I don't lose my temper.  Should I have stopped playing, even?  Maybe, I should have practiced 1 thing at a time.

Sorry if what I said prior was harsh..

Yay!

O boy, Ellen, I get to submit to a nice looking casting agency to get in Finding Dory!

Nite?

hey.

Would you consider me a selfish person ?

Ugh!

I just have so much cleaning to do.  I need to redo my room.  I have 0 ideas except to like put things away somewhere else, need a coat hanger but would rather get that outfit.

Problema

Why are people acting like oh I'm gonna h*** you because you have some problem you don't know and I'm not telling!

Think of all..

..the time I waste with the little voices people put in my room when I'm alone.

Twitter

So, what?

You chose, you lose

Problema

I was considering I was a problem and that I shouldn't watch the show, but I mean if I watch the show and then get attacked by an old nuisance then what?  I do NOT want to be linked to that girl who won't answer now in time.

I have control

over my life.  I vent, I take care of myself.  Just thinking, like maybe I'm on Twitter.

O my God, though!  WTF was that!  I know you don't wanna be the 1 to hear me play.

So..

I guess some people I like make a problem with what I do.  They attack me.  They think I'm shit.  I was kinda mad at the piano, no one to comfort me, no one to shit with..  So, I got off and just went to ask my dad about room on the computer, and then I knew he was plotting to me about getting his instead of getting mine fixed.  What if I had a sign I had to read every day about this?  I couldn't get the idea of my old music teachers off.  While I was playing.  I didn't really make a scene, but some words somehow formulated and I had to try to forget it and not have it materialize.  It was like they have something in my brain or because I know I'm being watched.  It just happens..  Something happened..  Then, I was just kinda upfront with my dad about being teased about music and "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and thinking of an old friend I had hoped became a big fan of Ellen DeGeneres..  Thing is, I just think like I know my other friend would like her too but for other reasons.  I dunno what reason you're supposed to have, but maybe they wish they did gymnastics or something and looked more like me, I thinks.

Wondering

It seems that people somehow had to do some situation or hopefully not..  I did wonder why my friend didn't watch Ellen DeGeneres, probably has a life.  She might watch TV still.  What does that have to do with me?  I already wanted to talk to her.  She won't.  I have no friends who'll talk to me.  They like stare at me, I feel.  What, what does that have to do with me, the way you few liked Pirates of the Caribbean and Johnny Depp.

Wow

Some people really went against the genes from my parents.

Nasty

So, people want my old friend to take my place with Ellen DeGeneres.. why?  No, I'm me.  I watch the show, I'm more like her than her.  She's overly developed in an unnecessary way.  I got really mad..  I was playing piano and I thought my old music teachers were in my life though they did not respond to me, just accepted my friend request on Facebook and the older 1 sent me a Linked In invite.

Now, my dad is giving me his old computer and was talking like his oldest sister.  I ran outta room, and he's not reading how to back up stuff, can't save it to a disk.  I'm running outta room like when I record.  He's like he didn't get my e-mail I sent.  I did whatever he said.  I have no clue where the manual is, now.

What was the thing with this shitty message?  I don't give a fuck @ a person who doesn't answer and never will because of something I did.  What the fuck is this.  :[  I'm tired of getting shit from people..

I feel people are clinging to me.  I don't cling to anyone.  That must be something someone else did.  I need to learn from others.  What, did you just get read by your genes from your parents!

Apprehensive

I feel surrounded by "negative energy."

Outfit I'd Like

$20 http://www.sears.com/us-polo-assn-junior-s-kate-skinny-jeans/p-002VA57266012P?prdNo=5
$15 http://www.sears.com/bongo-junior-s-t-shirt-necklace-striped/p-002VA57829012P?prdNo=7
$13 http://www.sears.com/bongo-junior-s-cardigan-sweater-striped/p-002VA56504812P?prdNo=15
$35 http://www.sears.com/rebel-by-zigi-women-s-short-boot-alex-black/p-054VA55835412P?selectedFilters=Style|Fashion%20boots\&prdNo=5

$83

New Photo

New Photo of Me

Una Pregunta

Has Nell Burton descended upon me - or was it the way I put her name for others to see - to be my competition and pretend rival?

What do you think??

What do you think of how Ellen thinks like for instance me I'm mentally ill and "actually" decides to do something she wouldn't do, like she just changed.  Because I think she is only 1/2 New Orleanian, by family|blood.  Like, you'd think she wouldn't think of like being disappointed, in a way, with how she is.