At some point before I remember the dream, I heard a click of the power going off and on I thought like I was about to die.
I remember in the dream that 1st there was a lotta stuff, then I was walking with my dad but not like it was him and I wanted to feel m********ory and have him carry me, so I went on him. I ended up in some basket and asked him to put me in my bed. That does not make me happy because it seemed so sappy.
There was something else I thought to remember but seem to forget it.
Oh, and my dad carrying me was pretty clear. I felt for a bump and knew not were it mine own.
I dunno, I just had a feeling my dad followed me like any other parent and wants to feel on top of me like I'm shit.
Well, no, I didn't feel him holding me. It was just an excuse to think @ me like m********ing. Yea, I asked my mom to carry me and him when I was younger. My mom I could until I was 3 and my dad maybe turned 8 or 7, at the mall. My mom, after school and before that the beach so I wouldn't get my feet dirty and have to clean them. I knew I'd grow up.
I'll just kinda say that I am in an experiment and probably why .. thought I woke up in my sleep with a teacher and 2 students and the teacher was holding me. The experiment happened, and then that was like something I thought about, with other people, too. I went up north, and it became more real and I often felt like I was being held in bed by people I was able to make up, like a mother. Did happen with a thin dad but not like a kid. I did think of siblings a lot, too. I think I still managed the schoolwork until maybe my back lost muscle and I was in bed 3 days, couldn't do the music history class, came late after the hurricane, why I was there. I did like it a lot, though.
I feel kinda bad, I never wanted anyone to pick me up nor hold me. After that, it's something I am inexperienced with in life. I believe people should be held and picked up. I hope it happens even if they got too tall to. I would like to be able to be important, but I feel that is a sacrifice of yourself, like to have people like all of a sudden want me to touch them. I don't because I guess it'd be how I feel @ my dad. My mom doesn't touch me but likes when we hug. I think it is awkward. I just don't wanna hurt anyone. I have tried to be adult-like, but this is altogether very different. I sometimes ween myself from when I was a Music Education major for @ a year. I do feel very drained and thinner, like someone took a big straw, like in a cartoon of like Sponge Bob and sucked the curly looking goo in the cartoon outta me from the running, guess I was able to do a lot, yesterday.
I dunno, I'm too small to pick up a teen. I am gonna do more arm workout and am getting taller so can't be Tinkerbell in the Disney parade because I looked too chubby making myself shorter. They measure me and last time I popped my neck up with my head. I'm 5'3". Of course, if I could pick anyone up, then I'd feel like of course more comfortable to be physical with other people I see.
If you wanna get to the point, I'm not sure @ how Tim Burton these days would touch me. I liked him in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I know, have to go back and see him, liked him lately. I mean, he was more a public figure then. Johnny Depp, I dreamed he touched me, supposedly my dad did it. He rubbed by me, so hot! Ellen DeGeneres seems on fire @ being more physical with people who are more aloof in their relation to her. I know she had to hold onto Taylor Swift for a good job, and yes I did like it. I just feel I wanna like work @ a daycare, learn to touch people. I dunno what I'd say if there was a favorite way for someone to touch me, and yea I wanna go in hysterics @ the very idea.. I guess I don't feel comfortable being ugly and fat, not sure how I'd look otherwise, and have someone put their hand around me looking at a bunch of people or something.. I am not afraid to touch other people, but I don't much.. I used to think @ holding someone's hand, as 1 thing, but it may be overrated and not something you'd do long with anyone.. What else would you do? I like the idea of going behind someone and lifting them from the ground. I like doing martial arts on them, too. I could still beat my little brother after a year of college but not tennis ever I think.. So, like I guess just a touch works out or like at a certain time a long touch or putting your arm on someone in a different way.. hm hugs? How would my hug feel, dunno @ that 1 for some reason. :0 Guess if I was up feeling good. So.. There's so much I wanna imagine again, like the f***ing. The inevitably betwixt eyes. Me as a little kid! So.. I dunno, I think it was mostly @ the f***ing and the eyes. And the picking up and holding, which does begin to feel like at a loss and not really feel that great.. In real life, maybe I can make it happen. I have ideas.. Like, I need to present myself, fix myself, like dress up, that would make me ***y. Sooner or later, I need to get going. So.. If you read through the funny.. stories hope you found them amusing if not just wacky and perverted. The old 1s were better. I hid them in old blogs. It doesn't even say Story on all of them. I can't even find them, didn't save the reference. My new stories feel like a jellyfish ripped apart. :( Okay, so if I met Ellen DeGeneres, I dunno if she'd touch me on her show, I probably wouldn't even be in a role where she usually does. If she did maybe just put her hand on me or arm around me would be like my favorite. What about you? :) That'd be neat if you could meet her or like if she did something special with fans. She picks up kids, I know. I guess if you had a Tinkerbell on your show because they're supposed to be dainty, it would be funny and probably cute! What if I did that when I was some sort of public figure? That's what I wanted, to be a public figure. I never thought of picking up people until now.
Yes, I'd want Tim Burton to touch me, hard though to think what. I mean, right now, I feel overshadowed and I guess worried about the art or interested in it or something and the acting, such an experience I bet. I think he's not too sappy happy. I dunno, maybe he's a guy and it's hard to say. Yes, I dreamed he lifted me in ballet, students, and I did good but it wasn't too hard, anyway. I dunno if he lifted other students. Guess I was like the baby personality, like Baby Spice. I would like for him to touch others, of course. :]