Thursday, September 5, 2013
Problema
I had my mouse off and I heard, "Do you want me to do it to your mommy to die?" Who shits words like that?
I WANT MY LIFE BACK B4 TIM BURTON
DIRT HOLES
I WANT MY LIFE BACK B4 TIM BURTON
DIRT HOLES
I see what's going on.
If I say something @ what's been said through a click, I get another click! You don't deserve to be in my life.
Problema
You're a downright *beep* looking! AH STOP SHUT UP
Watchu threatening me! You tryin' to joke? This doesn't seem normal, now.
sTOP THEY SAID KIDS STOP KEEDS SHUT UP *BEEP*
said Saturday or time time!
Watchu threatening me! You tryin' to joke? This doesn't seem normal, now.
sTOP THEY SAID KIDS STOP KEEDS SHUT UP *BEEP*
said Saturday or time time!
Problema
I will not accept insulting me and just letting it go like that's the thing to do.
What do you think of the idea that my future son is like my dad in real life and not the world he made up for us? My mom let out her own cough. I hate posting this shit.
What do you think of the idea that my future son is like my dad in real life and not the world he made up for us? My mom let out her own cough. I hate posting this shit.
I swear to God.
Like a normal person I strive, to compliment Ellen DeGeneres, but then people say I'm just looking for attention, and that's not the only nor main reason.
Another Thought
I thought of working out at this hour, now what bed? ! WHAT THE FUCK IS IT WITH THE GODDAMN CLICKS
Problema
I finished practicing guitar and harp and then some clicks came from by the computer! THAT WAS CONNECTED TO MY BROTHER. And then I touched my hair before putting away my dad's book, praytell my hair had lice!
WHY SHOULD I CARE DEVILS, SINNERS
WHY SHOULD I CARE DEVILS, SINNERS
Problema
I can't have my dad attacking me like he's all that, feeling for my body and changing it like I'm shit and act on remote control because he was too busy to fit his sorry ass into improving his own life!
Problema
My dad coughed, and I just happened to leave my door open. I don't wanna remember shit in this way.
Just Woke Up
Had to take out my contacts, which had .. my eyes, lots of goo.
Had a weird dream again.
I miss the old days online when I was more sane and had more to write from past real life experiences.
I'm going to bed in my bed, now, I think.
Had a weird dream again.
I miss the old days online when I was more sane and had more to write from past real life experiences.
I'm going to bed in my bed, now, I think.
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
It would be neat..
..if you care to make a list of what you think is right and wrong, if you haven't. A lot of people will find some things the opposite.
I do wanna help.
I think I always try. I mean, that's not what I do all the time. I have to do my life, as well, and also the people aren't always there to help. I need things, too.
Problema
I just get grunts and clicks. What about really talking something out with whoever you talk to?
Problema
They're being stupid and mimicy, they think what if I hurt someone. They act like they did it. I heard a noise again.. They said they're gonna do it, hypnotize a boy from England! Stop with your private needs.
Mad
I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP.
My mom came in and made me feel different, like a spider. Oh wow. MAD! SHOW OFF. Like that's something you should do. Now, I can't lay still.
My mom came in and made me feel different, like a spider. Oh wow. MAD! SHOW OFF. Like that's something you should do. Now, I can't lay still.
Problema
Why did I hear my dad cough? I have a noisemaker on! What's he acting like he's better cuz he knows what's gonna happen smart @ or is this just a coincidence? People, like my family or parents are smug.
Problema
Why are there more noises? It says, I made some noise again or something, but it is not something I wish to listen to and I can't seem to avoid it on purpose.
Una Pregunta
What's so special @ having ancestors from the South? How can you expect something like that?
Problema
I got threatened again, another picking on me, some weird voice and my Tweet popped up. This person is very wrong. This is very bad. This is illegal.
This person won't stop, I wanna go back to bed!
This person won't stop, I wanna go back to bed!
Problema
I don't know who the weirdo is, but they can't tell me what's right and wrong because they're wrong. I was just thinking of my brother. He's kinda funny when you think @ him. I always wondered if he wanted to be like me.
Dream
I remember being in a toupt group. I was in some youngest group, turned out to be young but not in style. There was something @ a big ball.
Someone watching me in my room aroused me, threatened me thinking of my brother.. This is shit, leave me alone! WTF is your problem!
I got up awhile ago. The threat was they made a loud sound at my computer..
Someone watching me in my room aroused me, threatened me thinking of my brother.. This is shit, leave me alone! WTF is your problem!
I got up awhile ago. The threat was they made a loud sound at my computer..
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Wondering
I hope my old friends are okay. I don't like the way they speak to me without speaking to me.
I hope I don't lose my temper. Should I have stopped playing, even? Maybe, I should have practiced 1 thing at a time.
Sorry if what I said prior was harsh..
I hope I don't lose my temper. Should I have stopped playing, even? Maybe, I should have practiced 1 thing at a time.
Sorry if what I said prior was harsh..
Ugh!
I just have so much cleaning to do. I need to redo my room. I have 0 ideas except to like put things away somewhere else, need a coat hanger but would rather get that outfit.
Problema
Why are people acting like oh I'm gonna h*** you because you have some problem you don't know and I'm not telling!
Problema
I was considering I was a problem and that I shouldn't watch the show, but I mean if I watch the show and then get attacked by an old nuisance then what? I do NOT want to be linked to that girl who won't answer now in time.
I have control
over my life. I vent, I take care of myself. Just thinking, like maybe I'm on Twitter.
O my God, though! WTF was that! I know you don't wanna be the 1 to hear me play.
O my God, though! WTF was that! I know you don't wanna be the 1 to hear me play.
So..
I guess some people I like make a problem with what I do. They attack me. They think I'm shit. I was kinda mad at the piano, no one to comfort me, no one to shit with.. So, I got off and just went to ask my dad about room on the computer, and then I knew he was plotting to me about getting his instead of getting mine fixed. What if I had a sign I had to read every day about this? I couldn't get the idea of my old music teachers off. While I was playing. I didn't really make a scene, but some words somehow formulated and I had to try to forget it and not have it materialize. It was like they have something in my brain or because I know I'm being watched. It just happens.. Something happened.. Then, I was just kinda upfront with my dad about being teased about music and "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and thinking of an old friend I had hoped became a big fan of Ellen DeGeneres.. Thing is, I just think like I know my other friend would like her too but for other reasons. I dunno what reason you're supposed to have, but maybe they wish they did gymnastics or something and looked more like me, I thinks.
Wondering
It seems that people somehow had to do some situation or hopefully not.. I did wonder why my friend didn't watch Ellen DeGeneres, probably has a life. She might watch TV still. What does that have to do with me? I already wanted to talk to her. She won't. I have no friends who'll talk to me. They like stare at me, I feel. What, what does that have to do with me, the way you few liked Pirates of the Caribbean and Johnny Depp.
Nasty
So, people want my old friend to take my place with Ellen DeGeneres.. why? No, I'm me. I watch the show, I'm more like her than her. She's overly developed in an unnecessary way. I got really mad.. I was playing piano and I thought my old music teachers were in my life though they did not respond to me, just accepted my friend request on Facebook and the older 1 sent me a Linked In invite.
Now, my dad is giving me his old computer and was talking like his oldest sister. I ran outta room, and he's not reading how to back up stuff, can't save it to a disk. I'm running outta room like when I record. He's like he didn't get my e-mail I sent. I did whatever he said. I have no clue where the manual is, now.
What was the thing with this shitty message? I don't give a fuck @ a person who doesn't answer and never will because of something I did. What the fuck is this. :[ I'm tired of getting shit from people..
I feel people are clinging to me. I don't cling to anyone. That must be something someone else did. I need to learn from others. What, did you just get read by your genes from your parents!
Now, my dad is giving me his old computer and was talking like his oldest sister. I ran outta room, and he's not reading how to back up stuff, can't save it to a disk. I'm running outta room like when I record. He's like he didn't get my e-mail I sent. I did whatever he said. I have no clue where the manual is, now.
What was the thing with this shitty message? I don't give a fuck @ a person who doesn't answer and never will because of something I did. What the fuck is this. :[ I'm tired of getting shit from people..
I feel people are clinging to me. I don't cling to anyone. That must be something someone else did. I need to learn from others. What, did you just get read by your genes from your parents!
Outfit I'd Like
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$83
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$35 http://www.sears.com/rebel-by-zigi-women-s-short-boot-alex-black/p-054VA55835412P?selectedFilters=Style|Fashion%20boots\&prdNo=5
$83
Una Pregunta
Has Nell Burton descended upon me - or was it the way I put her name for others to see - to be my competition and pretend rival?
What do you think??
What do you think of how Ellen thinks like for instance me I'm mentally ill and "actually" decides to do something she wouldn't do, like she just changed. Because I think she is only 1/2 New Orleanian, by family|blood. Like, you'd think she wouldn't think of like being disappointed, in a way, with how she is.
Hm..
I remember when they ask the class to write little notes to each other. I like that kinda stuff. Mine's always been good.
So, the problem is..
..I was like howcome you look like you just got losened up, you know, though? She doesn't really want me to talk @ her.
Something Important
My mom is sensitive because she is Chinese. There are some things she doesn't seem to have done to be an American.
What happened was I was at a meeting, and I had just hurt a girl a little by how I was acting, to see what would happen when she wasn't looking then looked, through a window from downstairs. It might have been set up. I went to the meeting. We had been talking @ something else, like an issue or "problem." That's what made her seem involved, and people were testing her lazily just to jest with me-
What happened was I was at a meeting, and I had just hurt a girl a little by how I was acting, to see what would happen when she wasn't looking then looked, through a window from downstairs. It might have been set up. I went to the meeting. We had been talking @ something else, like an issue or "problem." That's what made her seem involved, and people were testing her lazily just to jest with me-
I think..
I feel people think they are in the action of taking me away from a peaceful situation with my mom.
Poofs Up Hair .. "dim all the lights"
Does anyone else have to m*********? I'm so glad when it's over. I wonder if I lived alone I'd do it more or less. After I was done, I felt like I'd just been in the action. My opinion, I do not like it. I mean, I'd say yea it feels good but seems a bit bad with the thoughts that do it. I was hoping that it would stop. I mean, maybe like I am wondering if my friends do it. Working @ a daycare, I don't wanna make a kid do it, too. I imagined this stuff but don't want it to happen. I do wonder if anyone else does. I can do it myself. :) That's what I'm doing now.
Tired But Wondering
People are interested in me. I dunno, got online. My life has interesting stuff happen to it. It's hard to recollect, but it must have stuck with me.
I was also wondering @ my forum. I can get people from IMDb to post there. I wanted to make it comfortable for like relatives and people with the same interests.
Another thing I am trying to do now is occupy myself more. I might work @ a daycare part time, trying to audition for things. I would like college and am wondering what's good. I am wanting a TV show.
So..
Like to have fun, gonna get a Florida Disney pass in October when it cools down. No one to go with. That's fine, but I can talk online @ it. I really wanna record stuff and put it on YouTube. That was a big reason I wanted to go so much, but it's fun without the record, as well, gonna go alone I think.
I see cute girls @ Orlando and wonder if they look up to me. Guess they do.
I have to call my Gramma. I'm a bit apprehensive, tired at the moment.
I'm definitely very into "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and hope to click with other fans. Would be fun to go over to L.A. I'm trying to get in Finding Dory, actually, lots of people might be, though I don't see them all online. I actually planned and was writing in my journal @ Red Carpet. =)
So..
I thought I cleaned lots of my room, but it looks kinda torn apart. My life is pretty much with that as part of my background.
I dunno @ the people watching me, but it does raise awkwardness. I mean, I think people are watching me, but they don't make me feel good, anymore. That was years ago. I thought the world wasn't real. I mean, I get real happy when I'm not "the 1." So.. I mean, I fend for myself.
Well..
Trying to improve stuff, have good relationships, the ones I have at least, things like that, make people not feel like they need to do certain things for me, though @ the people in Orlando I think they're always seeping into others. People do as they will. Just gotta help myself.
...
I was also wondering @ my forum. I can get people from IMDb to post there. I wanted to make it comfortable for like relatives and people with the same interests.
Another thing I am trying to do now is occupy myself more. I might work @ a daycare part time, trying to audition for things. I would like college and am wondering what's good. I am wanting a TV show.
So..
Like to have fun, gonna get a Florida Disney pass in October when it cools down. No one to go with. That's fine, but I can talk online @ it. I really wanna record stuff and put it on YouTube. That was a big reason I wanted to go so much, but it's fun without the record, as well, gonna go alone I think.
I see cute girls @ Orlando and wonder if they look up to me. Guess they do.
I have to call my Gramma. I'm a bit apprehensive, tired at the moment.
I'm definitely very into "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and hope to click with other fans. Would be fun to go over to L.A. I'm trying to get in Finding Dory, actually, lots of people might be, though I don't see them all online. I actually planned and was writing in my journal @ Red Carpet. =)
So..
I thought I cleaned lots of my room, but it looks kinda torn apart. My life is pretty much with that as part of my background.
I dunno @ the people watching me, but it does raise awkwardness. I mean, I think people are watching me, but they don't make me feel good, anymore. That was years ago. I thought the world wasn't real. I mean, I get real happy when I'm not "the 1." So.. I mean, I fend for myself.
Well..
Trying to improve stuff, have good relationships, the ones I have at least, things like that, make people not feel like they need to do certain things for me, though @ the people in Orlando I think they're always seeping into others. People do as they will. Just gotta help myself.
...
Ex er cise
Chest & Abs - 6 minutes
My neck sure got a workout. I'm losing the length of my double chin.
My neck sure got a workout. I'm losing the length of my double chin.
Thinking @ Florida
Central Florida's good fun, but it's been the roughest. I used to touch my mom in SE FL, though.
Something Funny
You think maybe attractive people are bad, but you'll notice I'm not agreeable for some reason when you say I'm not attractive enough then..
Something
Here's Taylor Swift|Pink|Jackie Evancho|Amanda Seyfried: "WHYY does that make you upset!.."
Are they hoping the people who moved to Florida are the tacky 1s? Like we don't have a culture? Like we're "not allowed
Are they hoping the people who moved to Florida are the tacky 1s? Like we don't have a culture? Like we're "not allowed
Problema
I'm trying to sleep and all I'm getting is shuffling the music to represent my dad whom I do not touch. I touch other people. All anyone will give a fuck @ tomorrow is me thinking of slicing a k**** in my wall and it turning into you know.. I just heard a noise. What prestige do you hold in caring @ what I think?
Appropriate or Not
I think my oldest aunt started it, but like she seems to signal when something is appropriate, like me dancing to an Italian song if I watch Ellen DeGeneres, for example. What's wrong with Italian? She has an Italian partner.
Inconvenience
Before I took the classes from Ginny, I felt my ankles forming more like roots. I even saw something like that in the movie Saturday. I almost broke it seeing Mary Poppins as a musical. It was a theater class. She was acting stuck up and snobby thinking she was Ellen DeGeneres. I'm not sure I had to experience that. She did stop the class activities of sliding across the floor and it became uninteresting, I was kicked out and put back on psychiatric medicine by my mom.
Also
If I sound cool can't be bad because of my race. If she wants to get rid of me, then find someone to talk to, someone else.. Like, when I act cool, people act like I shouldn't. What does that mean!?
Well
Why did Ellen DeGeneres seem offended like she knew like what kind of dress people liked already?
Also, did you figure out why she likes dresses for fancy things made of cloth?
Also, did you figure out why she likes dresses for fancy things made of cloth?
Hm..
I wish Audrey Hepburn were alive. :| What about Orla Karron Fallon, who's younger? She's younger, an I rish ha .. harpist n singer.. very attractive, just had a son named Freddie. Karron is French.
So..
Say, Ellen DeGeneres didn't like me, in a way, but I was still interesting to her. Who do you think she would like?
This is ridiculous.
I feel my posts aren't agreeable, like my last 1. I don't need to balance it with a random thing, "what the fu -ck?" I mean I really liked it in time to when people don't. It's not some act.
So
I used to fall asleep right away, too tired for a story.
I thought lots of weird things.
I'm listening to Anne Hathaway. Someone on Twitter mentioned her. My hand, I felt was frozen to not change like I have it change, my right hand. That's perfectly ridiculous, it's my life. Maybe she is just a problem, meaning she has too many. Most people don't want dark hair and pale skin.
I got another sarcastic idea from an Ellen DeGeneres con-artist. Shouldn't say it, but I thought I actually heard it. Why?
What's this I'm not from Florida idea? Plus, NYC is incredibly stuck up. I'm not rooted in the north. That's just telling me I'm a lunatic, and idiot. I'm sitting here thinking with my glasses, sorry @ my life. Anne Hathaway doesn't sing that powerfully. She's not a singer. She seems to be getting it out. I wonder how she knows of this musical so much. She thinks she's a singer like me, but she's not.
I thought lots of weird things.
I'm listening to Anne Hathaway. Someone on Twitter mentioned her. My hand, I felt was frozen to not change like I have it change, my right hand. That's perfectly ridiculous, it's my life. Maybe she is just a problem, meaning she has too many. Most people don't want dark hair and pale skin.
I got another sarcastic idea from an Ellen DeGeneres con-artist. Shouldn't say it, but I thought I actually heard it. Why?
What's this I'm not from Florida idea? Plus, NYC is incredibly stuck up. I'm not rooted in the north. That's just telling me I'm a lunatic, and idiot. I'm sitting here thinking with my glasses, sorry @ my life. Anne Hathaway doesn't sing that powerfully. She's not a singer. She seems to be getting it out. I wonder how she knows of this musical so much. She thinks she's a singer like me, but she's not.
More
Why am I still getting negative messages from my dad?
Also, I got the idea Ellen with others would be able to just like in what you'd call a show off way but not being like mean @ that term though it seems like it in this crowd .. that I was walking around with confidence tonight, like I was someone. Maybe not, that sounds stupid, too. Why are people onto me for shit like that? LOL?
I'm concerned @ the self-centeredness of my dad's like attacking me like he used to seem to threaten, like he'd follow me and make sure to make me feel bad. If I told my therapist, then what? You know? Like, I know my mom did that. Like, do little things to annoy me. I don't want them that close to me. I don't mean necessarily never, but this is sappy and sucks. It's not how I am. I'm not a pig on the floor.
Also, I got the idea Ellen with others would be able to just like in what you'd call a show off way but not being like mean @ that term though it seems like it in this crowd .. that I was walking around with confidence tonight, like I was someone. Maybe not, that sounds stupid, too. Why are people onto me for shit like that? LOL?
I'm concerned @ the self-centeredness of my dad's like attacking me like he used to seem to threaten, like he'd follow me and make sure to make me feel bad. If I told my therapist, then what? You know? Like, I know my mom did that. Like, do little things to annoy me. I don't want them that close to me. I don't mean necessarily never, but this is sappy and sucks. It's not how I am. I'm not a pig on the floor.
Also
Wasn't our "thing" supposedly you think doing something bad meant you didn't mean it but wanted to get it out?
What to Do
I'm listening to my 3 Hayley Westenra songs, and people I probably wouldn't talk to are watching me in my room. My computer didn't shut off after an hour, and I didn't wanna get up. She actually just released a lullaby CD. I ran outta money, might have to listen to Charlotte Church? Don't really wanna do that in my sleep, nothing wrong but that she's so mainstream. No more money..
I'm very annoyed at being followed weirdly by everyone, my dad, my mom, who I don't know if she knows she's dong it. Isn't this because of Tim Burton and Johnny Depp? So what, I didn't blare out someone was the N word. They acted like it was part of the experiment, and I mean it's just a word that defines something, the only racial word used casually, don't really use it on my own. :|
You can't sit here and tell me I can't do something when you're also the 1 who caused it.
Now, they're bargaining, too. I don't wanna think @ that stuff.
I'm very annoyed at being followed weirdly by everyone, my dad, my mom, who I don't know if she knows she's dong it. Isn't this because of Tim Burton and Johnny Depp? So what, I didn't blare out someone was the N word. They acted like it was part of the experiment, and I mean it's just a word that defines something, the only racial word used casually, don't really use it on my own. :|
You can't sit here and tell me I can't do something when you're also the 1 who caused it.
Now, they're bargaining, too. I don't wanna think @ that stuff.
I so admire..
..Ellen DeGeneres for making things seem okay in the world and inspiring me to get a leather coat if I have a TV show
Monday, September 2, 2013
So..
If you're actually wondering what I'd be like moving back to Florida or to L.A. I have been in Florida, but I got kicked outta a class with the teacher I like from California.
Reflection?
I guess I've been kinda good. I still have things from my past I've already accounted for. I shouldn't like sit here and hit myself in the head.. I dunno? I mean, no, I don't know who causes these things in the world. I mean, I know cursing is considered bad, but some people find it funny, unless you e-mail someone and say they're some bad word or something like that, some suggestion to them, which can be hard to know what it is. It's nice when someone somehow lets you know the barriers so you know what to do beforehand. Then, you might find people who don't remember or don't take it seriously. People really like to be martyrs and make as scene just to make themselves heard about anything at all.
Getting Back
Whew! So, am I still in trouble?!. What happened? Why am I supposed to accept being hit so much? Most people don't find that funny to tell them. Perhaps, whoever did it wanted my brain to be damaged.
You know, this problem started with the N word thing.
You know, this problem started with the N word thing.
Wonder
if I'm bein' good. I figured to let the dream be. I was supposed to expect some long punishment, but maybe I'm just not gonna get out. I find things to make me happy but not really what I want. I dunno. I wouldn't get that mad at another person who didn't mean anything, so I dunno..I mean I do get upset when people do mean something I don't like @ me, like getting close like they're stronger, which in some ways is nice but others not. :/ Depends.
Wonder
if I'm bein' good. I figured to let the dream be. I was supposed to expect some long punishment, but maybe I'm just not gonna get out. I find things to make me happy but not really what I want. I dunno. I wouldn't get that mad at another person who didn't mean anything, so I dunno..I mean I do get upset when people do mean something I don't like @ me, like getting close like they're stronger, which in some ways is nice but others not. :/ Depends.
Also
I don't even know where I am discipline-wise, like if I got mad. Hm, maybe I'll just go out and have my dessert breakfast, Oreos, alas. 8I
Nice, how I don't curse @ any form of a crowd of people anymore.. nor at anyone I can take advantege of.. What else is there! *D; Oh, boo hoo!
Nice, how I don't curse @ any form of a crowd of people anymore.. nor at anyone I can take advantege of.. What else is there! *D; Oh, boo hoo!
Another Story would Be Nice
I just had a hard time, like I were a polititian wiping my eyes at the booth or rather in a seat or at a desk.
My Night + Dream
At some point before I remember the dream, I heard a click of the power going off and on I thought like I was about to die.
I remember in the dream that 1st there was a lotta stuff, then I was walking with my dad but not like it was him and I wanted to feel m********ory and have him carry me, so I went on him. I ended up in some basket and asked him to put me in my bed. That does not make me happy because it seemed so sappy.
There was something else I thought to remember but seem to forget it.
Oh, and my dad carrying me was pretty clear. I felt for a bump and knew not were it mine own.
I dunno, I just had a feeling my dad followed me like any other parent and wants to feel on top of me like I'm shit.
Well, no, I didn't feel him holding me. It was just an excuse to think @ me like m********ing. Yea, I asked my mom to carry me and him when I was younger. My mom I could until I was 3 and my dad maybe turned 8 or 7, at the mall. My mom, after school and before that the beach so I wouldn't get my feet dirty and have to clean them. I knew I'd grow up.
I'll just kinda say that I am in an experiment and probably why .. thought I woke up in my sleep with a teacher and 2 students and the teacher was holding me. The experiment happened, and then that was like something I thought about, with other people, too. I went up north, and it became more real and I often felt like I was being held in bed by people I was able to make up, like a mother. Did happen with a thin dad but not like a kid. I did think of siblings a lot, too. I think I still managed the schoolwork until maybe my back lost muscle and I was in bed 3 days, couldn't do the music history class, came late after the hurricane, why I was there. I did like it a lot, though.
I feel kinda bad, I never wanted anyone to pick me up nor hold me. After that, it's something I am inexperienced with in life. I believe people should be held and picked up. I hope it happens even if they got too tall to. I would like to be able to be important, but I feel that is a sacrifice of yourself, like to have people like all of a sudden want me to touch them. I don't because I guess it'd be how I feel @ my dad. My mom doesn't touch me but likes when we hug. I think it is awkward. I just don't wanna hurt anyone. I have tried to be adult-like, but this is altogether very different. I sometimes ween myself from when I was a Music Education major for @ a year. I do feel very drained and thinner, like someone took a big straw, like in a cartoon of like Sponge Bob and sucked the curly looking goo in the cartoon outta me from the running, guess I was able to do a lot, yesterday.
I dunno, I'm too small to pick up a teen. I am gonna do more arm workout and am getting taller so can't be Tinkerbell in the Disney parade because I looked too chubby making myself shorter. They measure me and last time I popped my neck up with my head. I'm 5'3". Of course, if I could pick anyone up, then I'd feel like of course more comfortable to be physical with other people I see.
If you wanna get to the point, I'm not sure @ how Tim Burton these days would touch me. I liked him in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I know, have to go back and see him, liked him lately. I mean, he was more a public figure then. Johnny Depp, I dreamed he touched me, supposedly my dad did it. He rubbed by me, so hot! Ellen DeGeneres seems on fire @ being more physical with people who are more aloof in their relation to her. I know she had to hold onto Taylor Swift for a good job, and yes I did like it. I just feel I wanna like work @ a daycare, learn to touch people. I dunno what I'd say if there was a favorite way for someone to touch me, and yea I wanna go in hysterics @ the very idea.. I guess I don't feel comfortable being ugly and fat, not sure how I'd look otherwise, and have someone put their hand around me looking at a bunch of people or something.. I am not afraid to touch other people, but I don't much.. I used to think @ holding someone's hand, as 1 thing, but it may be overrated and not something you'd do long with anyone.. What else would you do? I like the idea of going behind someone and lifting them from the ground. I like doing martial arts on them, too. I could still beat my little brother after a year of college but not tennis ever I think.. So, like I guess just a touch works out or like at a certain time a long touch or putting your arm on someone in a different way.. hm hugs? How would my hug feel, dunno @ that 1 for some reason. :0 Guess if I was up feeling good. So.. There's so much I wanna imagine again, like the f***ing. The inevitably betwixt eyes. Me as a little kid! So.. I dunno, I think it was mostly @ the f***ing and the eyes. And the picking up and holding, which does begin to feel like at a loss and not really feel that great.. In real life, maybe I can make it happen. I have ideas.. Like, I need to present myself, fix myself, like dress up, that would make me ***y. Sooner or later, I need to get going. So.. If you read through the funny.. stories hope you found them amusing if not just wacky and perverted. The old 1s were better. I hid them in old blogs. It doesn't even say Story on all of them. I can't even find them, didn't save the reference. My new stories feel like a jellyfish ripped apart. :( Okay, so if I met Ellen DeGeneres, I dunno if she'd touch me on her show, I probably wouldn't even be in a role where she usually does. If she did maybe just put her hand on me or arm around me would be like my favorite. What about you? :) That'd be neat if you could meet her or like if she did something special with fans. She picks up kids, I know. I guess if you had a Tinkerbell on your show because they're supposed to be dainty, it would be funny and probably cute! What if I did that when I was some sort of public figure? That's what I wanted, to be a public figure. I never thought of picking up people until now.
Yes, I'd want Tim Burton to touch me, hard though to think what. I mean, right now, I feel overshadowed and I guess worried about the art or interested in it or something and the acting, such an experience I bet. I think he's not too sappy happy. I dunno, maybe he's a guy and it's hard to say. Yes, I dreamed he lifted me in ballet, students, and I did good but it wasn't too hard, anyway. I dunno if he lifted other students. Guess I was like the baby personality, like Baby Spice. I would like for him to touch others, of course. :]
I remember in the dream that 1st there was a lotta stuff, then I was walking with my dad but not like it was him and I wanted to feel m********ory and have him carry me, so I went on him. I ended up in some basket and asked him to put me in my bed. That does not make me happy because it seemed so sappy.
There was something else I thought to remember but seem to forget it.
Oh, and my dad carrying me was pretty clear. I felt for a bump and knew not were it mine own.
I dunno, I just had a feeling my dad followed me like any other parent and wants to feel on top of me like I'm shit.
Well, no, I didn't feel him holding me. It was just an excuse to think @ me like m********ing. Yea, I asked my mom to carry me and him when I was younger. My mom I could until I was 3 and my dad maybe turned 8 or 7, at the mall. My mom, after school and before that the beach so I wouldn't get my feet dirty and have to clean them. I knew I'd grow up.
I'll just kinda say that I am in an experiment and probably why .. thought I woke up in my sleep with a teacher and 2 students and the teacher was holding me. The experiment happened, and then that was like something I thought about, with other people, too. I went up north, and it became more real and I often felt like I was being held in bed by people I was able to make up, like a mother. Did happen with a thin dad but not like a kid. I did think of siblings a lot, too. I think I still managed the schoolwork until maybe my back lost muscle and I was in bed 3 days, couldn't do the music history class, came late after the hurricane, why I was there. I did like it a lot, though.
I feel kinda bad, I never wanted anyone to pick me up nor hold me. After that, it's something I am inexperienced with in life. I believe people should be held and picked up. I hope it happens even if they got too tall to. I would like to be able to be important, but I feel that is a sacrifice of yourself, like to have people like all of a sudden want me to touch them. I don't because I guess it'd be how I feel @ my dad. My mom doesn't touch me but likes when we hug. I think it is awkward. I just don't wanna hurt anyone. I have tried to be adult-like, but this is altogether very different. I sometimes ween myself from when I was a Music Education major for @ a year. I do feel very drained and thinner, like someone took a big straw, like in a cartoon of like Sponge Bob and sucked the curly looking goo in the cartoon outta me from the running, guess I was able to do a lot, yesterday.
I dunno, I'm too small to pick up a teen. I am gonna do more arm workout and am getting taller so can't be Tinkerbell in the Disney parade because I looked too chubby making myself shorter. They measure me and last time I popped my neck up with my head. I'm 5'3". Of course, if I could pick anyone up, then I'd feel like of course more comfortable to be physical with other people I see.
If you wanna get to the point, I'm not sure @ how Tim Burton these days would touch me. I liked him in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I know, have to go back and see him, liked him lately. I mean, he was more a public figure then. Johnny Depp, I dreamed he touched me, supposedly my dad did it. He rubbed by me, so hot! Ellen DeGeneres seems on fire @ being more physical with people who are more aloof in their relation to her. I know she had to hold onto Taylor Swift for a good job, and yes I did like it. I just feel I wanna like work @ a daycare, learn to touch people. I dunno what I'd say if there was a favorite way for someone to touch me, and yea I wanna go in hysterics @ the very idea.. I guess I don't feel comfortable being ugly and fat, not sure how I'd look otherwise, and have someone put their hand around me looking at a bunch of people or something.. I am not afraid to touch other people, but I don't much.. I used to think @ holding someone's hand, as 1 thing, but it may be overrated and not something you'd do long with anyone.. What else would you do? I like the idea of going behind someone and lifting them from the ground. I like doing martial arts on them, too. I could still beat my little brother after a year of college but not tennis ever I think.. So, like I guess just a touch works out or like at a certain time a long touch or putting your arm on someone in a different way.. hm hugs? How would my hug feel, dunno @ that 1 for some reason. :0 Guess if I was up feeling good. So.. There's so much I wanna imagine again, like the f***ing. The inevitably betwixt eyes. Me as a little kid! So.. I dunno, I think it was mostly @ the f***ing and the eyes. And the picking up and holding, which does begin to feel like at a loss and not really feel that great.. In real life, maybe I can make it happen. I have ideas.. Like, I need to present myself, fix myself, like dress up, that would make me ***y. Sooner or later, I need to get going. So.. If you read through the funny.. stories hope you found them amusing if not just wacky and perverted. The old 1s were better. I hid them in old blogs. It doesn't even say Story on all of them. I can't even find them, didn't save the reference. My new stories feel like a jellyfish ripped apart. :( Okay, so if I met Ellen DeGeneres, I dunno if she'd touch me on her show, I probably wouldn't even be in a role where she usually does. If she did maybe just put her hand on me or arm around me would be like my favorite. What about you? :) That'd be neat if you could meet her or like if she did something special with fans. She picks up kids, I know. I guess if you had a Tinkerbell on your show because they're supposed to be dainty, it would be funny and probably cute! What if I did that when I was some sort of public figure? That's what I wanted, to be a public figure. I never thought of picking up people until now.
Yes, I'd want Tim Burton to touch me, hard though to think what. I mean, right now, I feel overshadowed and I guess worried about the art or interested in it or something and the acting, such an experience I bet. I think he's not too sappy happy. I dunno, maybe he's a guy and it's hard to say. Yes, I dreamed he lifted me in ballet, students, and I did good but it wasn't too hard, anyway. I dunno if he lifted other students. Guess I was like the baby personality, like Baby Spice. I would like for him to touch others, of course. :]
Another Short 1..
Mamma was visiting Grandmamma, who had her hand around her, still strong and young. I went up to them and said, "Here's some berries." I was thanked and sent away, mamma pat the side of my leg swiftly and so off I went.
I went to play with Curty and her 2 friends over, who were 4 and 5. I had to come and help with the gardening and then the vegetables and milking. By the time I was done I was so tired and Mamma carried me inside. I went over with Susan and Mikhail, and we ate sugar shapes. Mikhail was telling Susan of how nice school was, for she had not been in years. She was to go back. School would not start until another week.
So, the next day, we went to a fair. There was a witch at a table which scared me, so I wandered off. Little Curty had to stay with Susan or Mamma and Pappa or Grandmamma who lived in town now. Grandpappa was off doing business.
I saw the ferriswheel, and it made me dizzy. So, I almost passed out but moved along. It would be my birthday soon enough, and I'd be then 9 years old.
I played some games and won some prizes. I couldn't wait until we went back to the woods of Minnesota because I'd have a room all to myself.
My favorite prize was a yellow teddy bear.
Then, it was time to start packing. We sold our home and had 8 horses lug our belongings and ourselves.
We got there. We even had a pool built in. I tugged my bonnet and kicked the gorund with my foot. We all unpacked, and I put Curty in her room, which was not really as big as mine but almost. She had a little desk with some books to learn to read sentences. She had just turned 4.
I did a lot of work, some doing crops, doing the animals, cleaning and mending. I stopped with an hour and a half left in which I played on my harp. We were deep in the woods and would have to make due. Lotta people had moved. It was so much fun taking care of Curty while Mamma was busy, too. She had a job of some sort, on top of what we do at home.
I brushed Curty's hair and pushed her on the swing, her curly gold head bobbing and blue eyes sparkling. She was ready for school and would have to pick at least 1 activity to keep up. My activity was harp and singing. Hers would probably be singing and dancing. I was also happy for the others going to school. Jammes also was adamant and Jamilee. I went outside again to run and play with them. It was time to go in Pappa said and we all sat around the table and we ate heartily.
I went to play with Curty and her 2 friends over, who were 4 and 5. I had to come and help with the gardening and then the vegetables and milking. By the time I was done I was so tired and Mamma carried me inside. I went over with Susan and Mikhail, and we ate sugar shapes. Mikhail was telling Susan of how nice school was, for she had not been in years. She was to go back. School would not start until another week.
So, the next day, we went to a fair. There was a witch at a table which scared me, so I wandered off. Little Curty had to stay with Susan or Mamma and Pappa or Grandmamma who lived in town now. Grandpappa was off doing business.
I saw the ferriswheel, and it made me dizzy. So, I almost passed out but moved along. It would be my birthday soon enough, and I'd be then 9 years old.
I played some games and won some prizes. I couldn't wait until we went back to the woods of Minnesota because I'd have a room all to myself.
My favorite prize was a yellow teddy bear.
Then, it was time to start packing. We sold our home and had 8 horses lug our belongings and ourselves.
We got there. We even had a pool built in. I tugged my bonnet and kicked the gorund with my foot. We all unpacked, and I put Curty in her room, which was not really as big as mine but almost. She had a little desk with some books to learn to read sentences. She had just turned 4.
I did a lot of work, some doing crops, doing the animals, cleaning and mending. I stopped with an hour and a half left in which I played on my harp. We were deep in the woods and would have to make due. Lotta people had moved. It was so much fun taking care of Curty while Mamma was busy, too. She had a job of some sort, on top of what we do at home.
I brushed Curty's hair and pushed her on the swing, her curly gold head bobbing and blue eyes sparkling. She was ready for school and would have to pick at least 1 activity to keep up. My activity was harp and singing. Hers would probably be singing and dancing. I was also happy for the others going to school. Jammes also was adamant and Jamilee. I went outside again to run and play with them. It was time to go in Pappa said and we all sat around the table and we ate heartily.
Coincidences
There was a movie out with a bear, and the girl grabs the older I think boy by the stomach in a movie I saw today.
Short Story Before Bed
So, Mmamma had to tuck in Curty to bed for she had not seen her in 2 months, stuck in a "Pre-K," harvesting and eating spiced veggies and other secrets. She was only 4 years old with golden curls. I am Mauricia, and I had been with Mamma for a long time, watching the men build new shops in town. I have an older brother named Mikhail. Oh, I am 8, and he is 16. I have an older sister|aunt Susan who is 15. I actually have a 7-year old sister with light brown hair and a 7-year old brother with medium brown hair. Mikhail had dark gold hair, and Susan had light brown|dark blonde hair. My hair is black. Mamma has red hair and freckles on her cheek..like Curty. So, Mmamma rubbed the back of Curty and eventually she fell asleep happy to be in town. I was closing up, while everyone was in bed but Mamma. I said, "How long until we go back to Minnesota?" He, he, he. *blushes* She said, "I plan to ask the other adults when we are to commence, perhaps in a few days we will start rounding up." I slipped upstairs, kissed Mamma goodnight, and stared up through the window on top of the cabin. Suddenly, the hairs on my back prickled, though I saw a bear or monster on the roof. It could not get in, though, for the window was made of strong glass. I knew Pappa was in bed now. I slipped outta my bed, not really thinking and went outside. I started to climb the roof.. I saw the bear and screamed. I saw Pappa and Mamma run out the cabin as the bear chased me. Mamma grabbed me by the stomach and cooled me down. I was only 8, after all. Susan was beside me and carried me off to bed, and I fell asleep.
Problema
They won't stop playing with me. What if Kate Bush is involved? This is pretty stupid and worthless.
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Problema
I heard another threat from my dad like he'd change. What is this? He's just a machine that keeps going and doesn't stop. He's so sure he's okay. He goes to a group .. oh the door was opened and I had to close it. My mom usually closes it and it's almost midnight. Sounds like they both were out there. I heard ice then the microwave. What's that? He seemed to be thinking @ Ellen DeGeneres before. He's also thinking @ me, though. Stupid Nell Burton.
Anything else?
Because my dad always supported my dreams. I don't like my parents treating me like shit, making me fat in sneaky ways, not being any help in ways.
Problema
My dad isn't supposed to be involved in my life like that.. whattaya mean? I mean how he thinks something stupid like that. He needs to get his head in bed. This is no home, my life. Oh, so my money will come from Hollywood? Too bad I can't fix up my life 1st.
Problema
My dad just said, "I don't want to -k***- her," when I was in my room checking to see if anyone else responded.. that's not funny. It's not a good way to be stimulated.
Competition
I thought that there was actually an opportunity to find out like who can do what. Like, a lotta people wanna see Ellen DeGeneres, like be in Finding Dory. I saw a girl post that on Facebook when I searched Google. My answer is that I don't see how she's most like someone who should meet her. I'd need to know more. I mean, maybe she deserves to like someone with a hard life. I guess that's something else. I mean, she seemed testy, as well, like @ someone who seems like should meet someone. Why would anyone do that? It's not gonna help, and if you like them I mean. They probably believe that person is in their way, but there are lots of people in their way. I am just trying to be honest, but now I'm gonna think @ it. I can see she's sweet, but maybe she doesn't eat right and that's why she's overweight. Ellen probably likes those young lesbians. Well, not technically the smartest. You know, I just got the idea that me saying I'm bi offended her becuase it was like I liked her. Why does she tick like that, like that's her own animalistic reaction or tendency? Probably not the best thing to say, but you know what I really mean. You mean she has lots of feelings like that? I don't. That's okay, but I mean that's just like saying I'm Asian when I just act European but have a poor life. That offended me, but I'll get over it soon or have. Why do ya'll build like that, I mean okay bye have fun but I'm still here or whatever just hoping people do what helps them follow their dreams.. Like, I was talking @ meeting Ellen honestly for others. It's an easy thing to talk @.
You're just jealous.
You wanted to live on the beach. You think that since I am from Florida, and you think you're not I dunno .. that you need to rub in something like it ^happened^. Hasn't this been heard of, before?
So, is something up?
Is there anything I can do, then I can think @ it?
Funny, it's probably something @ making me feel bad even though punishment for others for me wouldn't bother me as much, or what it used to be that I remember but not exactly what. That kinda stuff happens to me, all the time.
Funny, it's probably something @ making me feel bad even though punishment for others for me wouldn't bother me as much, or what it used to be that I remember but not exactly what. That kinda stuff happens to me, all the time.
So, what?
That would mean essentially no more Ellen DeGeneres, but she does some nice things and is just like interesting otherwise. Well, really nice.
Problema
Why did Ellen call me a 1950 generation while she knows her 1960 generation is spoiled brats?.. I don't want anything like that! Well, did she? No, wait, you just loaded my page all weird like yea it seems like that's what she was thinking, but I don't wanna hear it.
Problema
Why are people showing Ellen DeGeneres off to me? Stop ruining my health.
Like, I'm doing stuff alone but get but in that I cursed @ Ellen online. I don't really remember that but probably cursed at anyone who mistreated me for the N word thing but not like, "Stranger" is shit. I don't really like doing that, so I don't seem to be doing it, anymore. I sorta slinked out of my hatred. I do still get upset. What is this shit for? I just heard a noise at my door, when I thought of shit. You lookin' at me and makin' me ugly? What? I said shit because it's shit. Like, my dad turned off the TV and eventually left, and usually I see his movies and think it's so cute and something I like. What, .. I hope no one is really doing these things to me. Just move on to your life. I want someone to talk to and make me feel better. All I have is what I post online. I dunno I used to talk to my aunts @ it, which probably they are unavailable at the moment and I haven't talked to them in awhile. I was just beaten with lots of messages, and things come to my mind, but it wasn't like @ Ellen DeGeneres. What's yo problem? I just said it WASN'T Ellen. It wasn't someone. It was just a thing, and it wasn't supposed to be something anyone does to me.
I hope it isn't a problem because all of what I say won't flow. You must have a problem online, then. Why don't you like comment and give me an idea for what I can post? No one is like comfortable around me online. Everyone was so mean to me, esp. after the N word thing. The whole world became dreamless, like for the tweens. You know, you don't like associate that with someone. You associate it with the way you reacted to the N word thing.
Like, I'm doing stuff alone but get but in that I cursed @ Ellen online. I don't really remember that but probably cursed at anyone who mistreated me for the N word thing but not like, "Stranger" is shit. I don't really like doing that, so I don't seem to be doing it, anymore. I sorta slinked out of my hatred. I do still get upset. What is this shit for? I just heard a noise at my door, when I thought of shit. You lookin' at me and makin' me ugly? What? I said shit because it's shit. Like, my dad turned off the TV and eventually left, and usually I see his movies and think it's so cute and something I like. What, .. I hope no one is really doing these things to me. Just move on to your life. I want someone to talk to and make me feel better. All I have is what I post online. I dunno I used to talk to my aunts @ it, which probably they are unavailable at the moment and I haven't talked to them in awhile. I was just beaten with lots of messages, and things come to my mind, but it wasn't like @ Ellen DeGeneres. What's yo problem? I just said it WASN'T Ellen. It wasn't someone. It was just a thing, and it wasn't supposed to be something anyone does to me.
I hope it isn't a problem because all of what I say won't flow. You must have a problem online, then. Why don't you like comment and give me an idea for what I can post? No one is like comfortable around me online. Everyone was so mean to me, esp. after the N word thing. The whole world became dreamless, like for the tweens. You know, you don't like associate that with someone. You associate it with the way you reacted to the N word thing.
Hurt
So, what is that something I did, too? You know, a lotta people are like this. Does that statement not sound defined enough?
Why you all think you're all that!? Who the fuck cares if I was never online before! Why the fuck you think we deserve computers? I had a bad life @ school! I was busy!
Why you all think you're all that!? Who the fuck cares if I was never online before! Why the fuck you think we deserve computers? I had a bad life @ school! I was busy!
What about you?
So, you wanting a good looking person makes you a pervert like an Asian?
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and wow I just got totally put off, thanks a lot experiment for the stupid N word thing .. which doesn't matter like my heritage!!!!
Go into the real world and see what happens! No one cares to hurt these people when they come on! Just you wait!
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY SMOOTH WORLD WHERE I AM THE 1 ON TOP OF WHAT I AM ON TOP OF
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and wow I just got totally put off, thanks a lot experiment for the stupid N word thing .. which doesn't matter like my heritage!!!!
Go into the real world and see what happens! No one cares to hurt these people when they come on! Just you wait!
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO MY SMOOTH WORLD WHERE I AM THE 1 ON TOP OF WHAT I AM ON TOP OF
Problema
I guess someone or some people are making fun of me like someone like they made me up to be that I never was before I went online and just posted normally from what anyone can see is going to be ^involved in^ Finding Dory if I can!
So, what?
Just wait until the next thing or "problem" I run into, which would be a problem for anyone else? LOL!
Nothing to Talk To
I am just a normal person, but my friends have like twisted me as just some shy, dumb person. Then, I had no friends, really. I have the internet, and these people haven't messed up with me, now. I wonder if I just bring back bad memories.
What's this?
People making fun of me for M. Ellen DeGeneres? Nothing against her! That's "what" they're doing. This is just how I talk. It's right. I'm not making fun of Ellen DeGeneres! You are! She's not lame!
Problema
So, why are you so mad @ something? I know it's just people being moody. If someone is mean to me, I mean, what do you think? I just fight back when people hurt me for the N word thing. I don't go in and insult them. I know some people have certain things I have to remember. I don't wanna do this for m***********. I never really cursed all growing up, but like I hear a black man on TV going crazy for his own greed. It sounds like he's making fun of my dad. I'm sorry, I'm not saying Ellen did this nor that she should have anything to do with what this is. Why do you act like that? I am the 1 who can suspect it's what it is because of the experiment.
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What else?
Are you like saying I can't have a life, I couldn't even enjoy a minimum wage job in an okay factory?
I was always considered a good person before Tim Burton, so people better respect me.
I was always considered a good person before Tim Burton, so people better respect me.
Back for Now
Why, like, has my mom, who fed me, etc., I guess just think I'm not good enough because of my weight?
Also, I don't really see why I deserved to be hit, that was their idea.
Also, I don't really see why I deserved to be hit, that was their idea.
Problema
My mom made noises last night in the laundry room and made my heart have problems. SHE was mean to me yesterday.
Also, I can't even feel sad in private. These clicks of people watching me but me not deserving what everyone else does to them. They're just acting like a bunch of little monkeys to me. Since Johnny Depp and Tim Burton ya'll're retarded to listen and think things like this are suggestive, saying someone's acting like a monkey. No one in particular, just what I mean..
Also, I can't even feel sad in private. These clicks of people watching me but me not deserving what everyone else does to them. They're just acting like a bunch of little monkeys to me. Since Johnny Depp and Tim Burton ya'll're retarded to listen and think things like this are suggestive, saying someone's acting like a monkey. No one in particular, just what I mean..
In Thinking of Others
Like, don't impose my nose on you, but some people like they are who they are they aren't to impose like someone else.
Why gawk that I think I'm something in the class and then say I'm not for no apparent reason than maybe my race? Just be mean to be funny and to have something to say? And I'm in trouble?
Why gawk that I think I'm something in the class and then say I'm not for no apparent reason than maybe my race? Just be mean to be funny and to have something to say? And I'm in trouble?
Something Funny
Just did a Word Captcha and forgot what I was gonna say and had no muscle to think of it, again.
Also
I sorta don't want to be categorized into some bin of constant unnecessary thought. People are treating me like shit. Everyone else is open to be vocal @ what they mean.
Something Weird
I see European minorities acting anti-Asian|Chinese|Oriental. Isn't that something to the effect of my dream, though I care @ them? I assume everyone thinks the same thing.
Something Embarrassing
I think people thought something was "if," but I knew what you could do to get what's available.
Pregunta
I know I want some things but will still live if I don't get them. I mean, I'll try to get them. I was just wondering why some people make a big scene of not getting what they want. Isn't that not cool?
What should I have done?
People are going manic @ me as an infant not having a big nose. Why do you think I did that? I never did that when I was older, just sorta tied it up so it was a strong message. ..which makes me wonder ~
Thought of Something
Something crossed my mind, as well.. I don't think it's as fun to be with some people when they are engaged in someone who's mean to you. Like, they don't act right when it's @ you being attractive.
Also, what's with telling people everyone rounds up with their life as mean just to be sugary that they are the best?
Do you ever dig in and find that because of other people is why you're never right for who you are because they're all antsy, like racially or something? I know I did what I was supposed to. I guess other people come from mean parents, but I mean yea their parents probably just were jealous.
Also, what's with telling people everyone rounds up with their life as mean just to be sugary that they are the best?
Do you ever dig in and find that because of other people is why you're never right for who you are because they're all antsy, like racially or something? I know I did what I was supposed to. I guess other people come from mean parents, but I mean yea their parents probably just were jealous.
Dream
I remember trying to get Coca Cola, but it was in a small river next to me, saw a tree thing sticking up, like a gator or turtle.
I was trying to m*********, again, seems something is stopping me up. I just tried where no one was gonna be looking. Once, in another room that seemed dark and sticky, too, and tree-induced. Another, like us walking in a parade.
I am thinking of friends, maybe it was Curly Alicia from Twitter.
I think we had a tour guide, like the lady at the auditions from Disney.
It was just sorta dark, a bit happy. I think we were getting breakfast. I felt like an animal, like a big weasel, but technically all like, like I really was 1.
I was trying to m*********, again, seems something is stopping me up. I just tried where no one was gonna be looking. Once, in another room that seemed dark and sticky, too, and tree-induced. Another, like us walking in a parade.
I am thinking of friends, maybe it was Curly Alicia from Twitter.
I think we had a tour guide, like the lady at the auditions from Disney.
It was just sorta dark, a bit happy. I think we were getting breakfast. I felt like an animal, like a big weasel, but technically all like, like I really was 1.
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Wondering
Do you ever get ideas that just pop up and you didn't do it? I mean, like not even some kind of reaction. That happens all the time to me. I'm trying to improve the situation.
WAH (WHY)
Why am I supposedly incompetent since Tim Burton and Johnny Depp? I was sorta like Ellen DeGeneres, in some life.
You don't know . what I know
You know what I know about Johnny Depp? He was like battling over things quickly in micro-actions just because he's from Florida. He thinks everything's .. the world does .. is a "1 2" or a battle, where you really quickly rehash the same thing over and over until you're out and without any rendering services.
O BOY O BOY
It's TIMMY: link
Well, I guess I'll lay off and stick to warding off the noises in my room! What a pleasant surprise! Where's the kids?
Well, I guess I'll lay off and stick to warding off the noises in my room! What a pleasant surprise! Where's the kids?
I will not put up with this.
Tim Burton thinking he has to give in and say he's stupid because other people are NOT Tim. We have the world, too. It was nice for others before.
Attacked
They won't stop. No 1 gives a damn @ Nell Burton. They wanna make Ellen weak, Tim. What do you want to do to h**?
Problema
Chloe Moretz has issues, thinks she has to be stronger than me. We already seee "what." She's mean to me because of the N word thing.
Problema
I can't do anything, not even be friendly, nor take care of myself. Who gives a fuck @ parents?
Problema
I found my dad set off the whole town to think of a washing machine to my brother. I know they went in and did something when I came back. The classes were too hard, I wasn't prepared from the NEW ORLEANS area..
My dad is a liar and a cheat. I just went and made sure he wouldn't do anything. I can say whatever I want. I don't give a damn @ anyone else.
"Food for Thought"
What if you said 1 person deserved something another person was supposed to have, like being a child celeb?
NOW WHAT
Another message from my dad and a disgusting noise click in my room from supposedly Kate Bush? WTF @ that? I thought I was talking @ Ellen. I like her, too!
Problema
They won't quit!! I feel punished with Ellen for saying something @ Tim Burton HE DID WRONG LOOK WHAT YOUR PROBLEM }8|
Look now it's @ that boy in England. I'm not your GODDAMN secretary.
I'm getting veins in my hand.
Problema
What was that? You're just being racist when I make a point and literally hurt me. My dad said, "I did it to a beer." Like in his cough I heard that. What if I think of that, they do that so I think of something when I see it. You can't hurt me you racist for saying the N word and it was part of the experiment.
Another Problem
I'm still picking up after others's shit when I've already offered as much I as I could|should|would to help.
My Be..lief!
You should not hurt anyone because you probably were too lazy or sorry to say stupid to do what you were supposed to and had to do cuz you're a stupid person but I hope not aha ha ha.. You ain't innocent. Not talking @ Ellen.
I should quickly and fully apologize.
Sorry to Ginny for my sarcastic thoughts if you haven't balanced them out..etc.. am tired too kinda need exercise, to figure out how I'm gonna get healthy. I mean I don't really work out that long, unless it's jogging.
Something Else @ Me Hard to Understand
I was so mad at the clicks bothering me. I just felt everyone was crazy and mean and said I was worthless if I wanted it to stop. I posted it online hoping for help! I did get help from my last blogs. Thigns just changed for me. I am a bit nicer in some ways. I tried to say like why do you think it's so-and-so, really. I was so mad, just wanted it up.
Something Else
I do m********* to things I don't like to talk @. I don't like to and try not to, but sometimes I mean I just do it. I used to feel a lot when I thought @ stuff like that without m********ing.
Can I be trusted?
I probably am just sucking up.
Let me explain myself. Tim Burton and Johnny Depp came out, the world went crazy..and RACIST outright RACIST all the chances I ever percieved were shit!
Let me explain myself. Tim Burton and Johnny Depp came out, the world went crazy..and RACIST outright RACIST all the chances I ever percieved were shit!
What I Found
I found out something interesting. People sing to prove they can sing, whereas I do it to express myself like acting.
Problema
Why did my mom just rub in I can't talk to the real Ellen DeGeneres?.. Why do you all all day spit out insults? How will I get a job and have a life. My private life. What happens then?
Problema
You all just act like shit for my shit peers. Not talking to anyone personally, in particular, .. Just the world, maybe because of Tim Burton. He cares about the shit, I guess. Not a nice word, but sometimes it's funny, if you don't take it too far. Sorry.. I mean come on, you're all like always giving some secret handshake like you're some person in a leather jacket from the 1950s. Don't necessarily just all stop, just sayin'. What is it @ these .. whatever .. peers? Why is that their wet d****? Or what, not that? Why is it their fantasy? Why do it on me, I always dreaded this..you know a feeling I have|had.
Why did my dad just say..
.."she's not on on Ellen DeGeneres?" I watch her show.
I was just sitting in my room thinking @ how they leave out whine slushy samples unattended at a wine shop that moved away from the bubble gum machine after I asked for change.
What just cuz my mom was being mean? Also, I wasn't dressed, was TIRED, and didn't really wanna confront with my dad.. why'd he just say that? That's crazy. He was supposed to stop. Wut, you wanna see mydad undressed? I mean, he's not naked.
Kick Me Off~
Twitter! I keep checking. I don't know enough people, though. It's not always fun to look at an old friend's and wonder who's talking to them. :(
Pregunta
If 1 could have kids and it's a sign of growing up, why would you think it's bad if you're an active human being and a good parent? I know it's @ the way the world is, too. I mean, it's special, though you could say it's a sign of responsibility. I was thinking, why not have kids when you're like 18, 19, 20? I know Late Boomers had them later.
O, and something I forgot to say
I do not ever do anything Asian so do not do anything Asian to anyone. I feel it is sorta a sickness, though, at the moment and other times. I don't look Asian! I'd even say I don't like to be Asian but am nice to Asians.
Why did I get the message I did something to Ellen when I think she did something to me though I feel she is I mean like everyone thinks fun and nice.. like I thought about my life being an experiment and just said I think she's done stuff anyway..
I just got the message I was an Asian at home watching thee Ellen who acts like she's Jewish just because of her mom's maiden name. I know, it's disappointing, but it's also happy of course. It is stressful to deal with her actually I think wallowing in self-pity and trying to get attention for it. No, anyway, I am not an Asian. I just am fatter than before, and people didn't treat me like I was white. I didn't do anything. I know the world did it, made white people white. Why make fun of them? They just wanna keep precious secrets.
Why are you all suddenly freaking out @ me? Don't put Asian in MY life. I want white. Freakish!
Why did I get the message I did something to Ellen when I think she did something to me though I feel she is I mean like everyone thinks fun and nice.. like I thought about my life being an experiment and just said I think she's done stuff anyway..
I just got the message I was an Asian at home watching thee Ellen who acts like she's Jewish just because of her mom's maiden name. I know, it's disappointing, but it's also happy of course. It is stressful to deal with her actually I think wallowing in self-pity and trying to get attention for it. No, anyway, I am not an Asian. I just am fatter than before, and people didn't treat me like I was white. I didn't do anything. I know the world did it, made white people white. Why make fun of them? They just wanna keep precious secrets.
Why are you all suddenly freaking out @ me? Don't put Asian in MY life. I want white. Freakish!
Problema
My mom is being an animal in the kitchen sending me messages with how the dishes sound! She thinks she's some other 1/2 Asian's mom who doesn't have a good influence on her, is in treatment mentally.
However, she relayed it was Ellen.
I DON'T LIKE THAT. That is so incredibly stupid. What was that, blinked the screen? This is *beep*! It can't be her, anyway. Why, that's *beep*! It's bad, whatever!! If you did it and I just found out I'm not going to accept it.., doing bullshit for *beep* people. I was trying to sleep.
I just heard a stupid noise in my room someone planted there. This is ruining my life.
There, I hope that message is okay. What does anyone think! They just don't wanna benefit me. No one talks to me directly in real life.
Ah, I'm tired and can't think. This is too much to sieve through, I guess. Can't read another word. :(
I just don't like this nonsense, saying my mom is not special to me, saying she ^transformed^ and is into someone who just sorta grabbed her like that's even okay.
Is this getting back at a few other things you don't like I may have done? And what praytell has happened to my brain?
Did you see the girl's reaction? She just thinks, "Oh..that's mine." Do I have to tell you what this means? It's okay for her to have a nice relationship with my mom, but this is just nonsense to play around like this acting harsh and like my mom's better than me and is changing and I'm not good enough for her and someone else is, what I think is the nature of this.
Why do you keep acting like I'm mean? I keep saying that, but the only thing that happens is people playing mean with me and other people in the end not even knowing what to think or care about. People lik me for staying in line. They don't like hyperactive freaks permeating the known world.
So, yes, I always like people getting close to my mom, but why bump me off? You can sit in front of me and sing that your mom is like the great Ellen DeGeneres, and I wouldn't be able to get upset. But when you insult me with something and act weird and nasty, that's not okay. In fact, I do see tweens telling me that "their mom" is cool, and actually that's something I tend to wanna chase after. However, you should think of Ellen as a mom. Just don't like rub it in. You can think anything looks motherly, even an old dog. I mean that some people don't want it to be rubbed in, perhaps, so don't say I told you to go coocoo or something..
So..
What is it? Why are you acting nasty like my mom replaced me rather than added someone in her life? She actually hasn't seen her. Just trying to sound mean??
Okay..so - well, I tried to write up a good thing @ my feelings. What now, I think @ punishment when you made me uncomfortable? Whoever did it.. Well, my mom just made me sound upset. It kinda ruined my weekend. I wasn't dressed. I can't seem to find the right kinda workout, the right food at home sometimes or no food I like a lot. Anyway, I think there was something up for her, too, but I dunno. I tried to kinda not blow up, but then I was kinda sad and just said whatever I said, don't remember exactly. This is getting to be a long post and I need to lie down or do something else or even you know just post @ something else. :) It's good for you to post your feelings..
However, she relayed it was Ellen.
I DON'T LIKE THAT. That is so incredibly stupid. What was that, blinked the screen? This is *beep*! It can't be her, anyway. Why, that's *beep*! It's bad, whatever!! If you did it and I just found out I'm not going to accept it.., doing bullshit for *beep* people. I was trying to sleep.
I just heard a stupid noise in my room someone planted there. This is ruining my life.
There, I hope that message is okay. What does anyone think! They just don't wanna benefit me. No one talks to me directly in real life.
Ah, I'm tired and can't think. This is too much to sieve through, I guess. Can't read another word. :(
I just don't like this nonsense, saying my mom is not special to me, saying she ^transformed^ and is into someone who just sorta grabbed her like that's even okay.
Is this getting back at a few other things you don't like I may have done? And what praytell has happened to my brain?
Did you see the girl's reaction? She just thinks, "Oh..that's mine." Do I have to tell you what this means? It's okay for her to have a nice relationship with my mom, but this is just nonsense to play around like this acting harsh and like my mom's better than me and is changing and I'm not good enough for her and someone else is, what I think is the nature of this.
Why do you keep acting like I'm mean? I keep saying that, but the only thing that happens is people playing mean with me and other people in the end not even knowing what to think or care about. People lik me for staying in line. They don't like hyperactive freaks permeating the known world.
So, yes, I always like people getting close to my mom, but why bump me off? You can sit in front of me and sing that your mom is like the great Ellen DeGeneres, and I wouldn't be able to get upset. But when you insult me with something and act weird and nasty, that's not okay. In fact, I do see tweens telling me that "their mom" is cool, and actually that's something I tend to wanna chase after. However, you should think of Ellen as a mom. Just don't like rub it in. You can think anything looks motherly, even an old dog. I mean that some people don't want it to be rubbed in, perhaps, so don't say I told you to go coocoo or something..
So..
What is it? Why are you acting nasty like my mom replaced me rather than added someone in her life? She actually hasn't seen her. Just trying to sound mean??
Okay..so - well, I tried to write up a good thing @ my feelings. What now, I think @ punishment when you made me uncomfortable? Whoever did it.. Well, my mom just made me sound upset. It kinda ruined my weekend. I wasn't dressed. I can't seem to find the right kinda workout, the right food at home sometimes or no food I like a lot. Anyway, I think there was something up for her, too, but I dunno. I tried to kinda not blow up, but then I was kinda sad and just said whatever I said, don't remember exactly. This is getting to be a long post and I need to lie down or do something else or even you know just post @ something else. :) It's good for you to post your feelings..
Another Aside
I can just see Ellen DeGeneres lighting up to Chloe Moretz for just being able to use her brain, like she's the perfect generation age for a child of someone in her regime.
Powerful and Stressed
Kids today have such a high level of hyperactive playing smart ways. I am so relaxed watching someone like Jessie Klein and imagined her with Ellen DeGeneres. It was so peaceful. What's with all the hyperactive fans?
Problema
Why don't you do something, instead? My ancestors came a long time back from a European-influenced culture and caught on but are still stuck up @ their race being 2nd class.
Problema
My mom just came home today and scared and attacked me, I mean-a sTARED
She looked like some other 1/2 Asian and looked at me differently. Whose idea is it to have my mom be someone else's mom, INSTEAD. I am biologically built very much like her because I like it and I was in her w*** from c*********. I wantedwhatIwanted-
She looked like some other 1/2 Asian and looked at me differently. Whose idea is it to have my mom be someone else's mom, INSTEAD. I am biologically built very much like her because I like it and I was in her w*** from c*********. I wantedwhatIwanted-
Wale! (Well)
I don't think I want any magazines..TV shows with people. Oh, just Astro Girl off the shelf.
Uh Oh
Isn't it weird when you see Tim Burton it's cool? Maybe, he's just different, different from me of course. :]
I said
YOU were mean to me. YOU were looking @ me and not letting me talk.. not yourself, no 1's gonna dig up you for feeling sorry for oneself.
PROBLEMA
Ellen we don't care I don't want you k***ing me. My mom is now sweeping dead bugs. I'm good, I don't do anything wrong. This is cheap, stupid, and worthless. I CLEAN after dead bugs. I don't know what shithole you popped your head outta, not talking to Ellen..
Problema
You're even acting like it's not 1 of those big stupid things why you're utterly seemingly worthless. No, I'm not talking @ any 1 person, any human, nor anything like that totally.
Problema
What if I just found out Ellen did these problems, told my mom to do something. Why you coming back? Where'd my mom go, she kept testing me. Not sure what happened but I sure as Hell don't care!
Problema
Does Chloe Moretz want me to stop following her on Twitter? That's mean, I don't think she does. People think I'll find someone else better for me but I dunno, I mean yea she is a unique person but need someone to talk with or follow.
Problema
So, I guess with me the problem was I am from Southern U.S.A. With other people it's a different thing, like someone else is also Southern. I didn't impose anything.
Problema
I got another nasty message, that I should m********* to shit. WHAT IS ALL YOUR PROBLEMS. Ellen help, no one is nice to me.
O
They're m********ing me calling me not white and acting like I'm in hysteria as an Asian. I DO NOT LIKE TO BE ASIAN IN AN ASIAN WAY. You know that way where they don't conform to their wishes to be white.
THIS IS SHIT
You're not even nice to people who are mean to me.
They keep calling me not white stuff!
Stop m********ing me?
They keep calling me not white stuff!
Stop m********ing me?
Problema
Like, she just grew up and muses on others not making themselves happy but with me hurts me. If she was the 1 who hit me. The girl did have a boy cut.
Problema
Why does Ellen not think @ like people with real problems.. like what if she wanted me to get hit? I think people think it's funny..
Problema
It's like constantly awake, and I know no one cares. What if it was done on purpose? I could put you in prison.
Problema
Now, my head is causing me nonstop stress. It's a feeling you get when you haven't eaten, exercised, nor taken a shower. It's where I was hit..
Problema
Why won't you pathetic cases even just shut up? Orlando just keeps shitting. You're the 1 people wanna get.
YOU
I am not gonna live being called a nigger just because of you, Tim Burton. They have to do it just in case. I wonder if there even is a nigger.
Lingering Turmoil
Is it unspeakable to say Ellen's logos have been more self-centered? How do you feel about that? I mean, it's @ us. MySpace, which isn't as popular and doesn't have the groups like we like for the movies.
There's nothing wrong, but people make it mean different things. If that were true, I mean, I'd be doing something else differently..
There's nothing wrong, but people make it mean different things. If that were true, I mean, I'd be doing something else differently..
What I Want to Do
I want to clean and rearrange my room. My dad's gonna help me with backing up my computer with excessive files.
Not Sure What to Do
I want some time by myself and just finished breakfast. The TV was good, not much chance to respond.
There are 2 things~ going around. 1 of the 1s is the way Ginny acts like I'm not good enough for her, when all you can say is she is ***y. You can accredit her skills, but you can also do that with mine. You just can't say that I give people *** like that. I dunno, I mean, it's not like no person can or whatever a person can't.. So .. What else, Ellen wants to be #1 now, well I dunno I mean there are people out there you don't even know what you're talking about making a contest on who's worth it, who should do what. You know, from her show, she has a writer who works hard. Her interviewer is cute and very nice. Um, I think you don't -have- to do just that. I'm nice, too, not just like all about smiling and saying hi and not expressing anything else, not that she doesn't at all.. :| What a happy girl. She found a good person for that job! That is so cute! She does seem smart, I mean, you know what I mean..
There are 2 things~ going around. 1 of the 1s is the way Ginny acts like I'm not good enough for her, when all you can say is she is ***y. You can accredit her skills, but you can also do that with mine. You just can't say that I give people *** like that. I dunno, I mean, it's not like no person can or whatever a person can't.. So .. What else, Ellen wants to be #1 now, well I dunno I mean there are people out there you don't even know what you're talking about making a contest on who's worth it, who should do what. You know, from her show, she has a writer who works hard. Her interviewer is cute and very nice. Um, I think you don't -have- to do just that. I'm nice, too, not just like all about smiling and saying hi and not expressing anything else, not that she doesn't at all.. :| What a happy girl. She found a good person for that job! That is so cute! She does seem smart, I mean, you know what I mean..
Hey, guess what?
I just watched MSNBC. It was pretty good. Live world news, even a Muslim over. There's another world show I saw in the mental clinic where they acted like an anchor was the Russian President.
Watcha Think
I already said what I said. You like Ellen because she is ***y and comforting. No one seems to even want to take a 1st step and talk to me. Anyway, her growing up? You'd have liked me then, you know when I was growing up!
Problema
They're just fighting me. I'm gonna redo my room, then you can step into it and see what noises there are, even the garage door during the day. Then, there's the computer loading in certain times.
Problema
What a stupid loser you'd be not to understand this.. I think I was more likeable than Ellen DeGeneres until I watched her show. You just encourage her nose.
Wut.
Why are you acting like Ellen is a baby and sucking up to my dad? My dad is not that kind of person you barge in and think it's Tim Burton and Saturday Night Live like some kinda weird food you mix together but I don't mean anything weird in a certain way.
Problema
I just got a threat, I just posted something important. What was that! "Do you want me to do a plie in your room?" You don't have any right to hit me! I got hit in the head, and Ellen might be involved. Stop punishing me, I didn't do nothing. I have a right to say *beep* you, go *beep*. I don't say it, anymore, probably lost its affect. Didn't want to. I kept hearing noises in my room. I still do. I know other people do, too, not sure if they said so, yet. I don't wanna sit here and sift through shit for Ellen. I'm going to school, but 1st I wanted to get in the Disney parade. I need to get in shape. They want us too thin. They have these slightly happy young girls. I don't mean to threaten something weird @ college! I don't wanna sit here saying, "Stop acting like Ellen," all thru the day each day. Wow, what if they do it more, just because of how I say things? It's work to say things a certain way. Hey, I need breakfast. Also, why do you think I should be punished? If Ellen had a kid, the kid would be smothered in the world. I'm just saying.
Problema
This wasn't like this before. I just kinda have to forget @ Tim Burton. I mean, I'll follow him online, I'll still be a fan really. I just have to get rid of these problems, somehow. I am surrounded, so I can't seem to do what I like.
Problema
So, why am I getting resounding messages from Ellen? You can't be mean to me and rub in with my dad just to annoy me? I thought you mattered! and were famous. It's @ ME, not my parents. They aren't online nor watching the show. Everything I tangibly do seems to be treated like shit. Ellen is a racist. She also wallows in her own racial makeup. No offense, wallower. Ellen is nice to people, but then you get those after-messages. I just mean I'm judging if she uses racism, not saying otherwise she's just a bad person. Most people -are- racist.
Hey
You're posting shit in the style of Ellen in a twisted way! I thought I was ^alone^. Word Captchas.
Problemas
I don't think anyone has a right to suggest I did something wrong and make some earth shattering decision because of it, I mean things like the signs, though. :|
People are mean to me since I failed college because I was tired from losing sleep for homework a lot of my later life or more. Then, I was using store cards, and my parents refused to pay, anymore, not even with allowance for it, like with the college bill I thought I could postpone since they were the 1s that kicked me out of my major for no reason.
My mom was acting like I was bad to sleep without socks because Ellen was punishing me, which I don't think she was. If she was, I mean I can see her saying she is but not doing it.
What else? I hit my wall once not in an annoying way when I felt ^the pangs of racism^ just being a poster online.
I also put up posters in the living area, thinking they'd like the arrangement. Just for fun, I mean why don't they just say to take them down? They probably liked them.
Other little things. I got upset at the way they were acting and then they just got mad when I asked normally.
People are also being g** to my dad and mom saying they deserve something for me. There is no real, normal way they could have been involved. That's too bad because everyone I meet now is like that. For a long time, no one would acknowledge me. My dad and I's relationship are not crap. We don't just touch each other every day nor every week.
Anyway, I've posted like this before.
People are mean to me since I failed college because I was tired from losing sleep for homework a lot of my later life or more. Then, I was using store cards, and my parents refused to pay, anymore, not even with allowance for it, like with the college bill I thought I could postpone since they were the 1s that kicked me out of my major for no reason.
My mom was acting like I was bad to sleep without socks because Ellen was punishing me, which I don't think she was. If she was, I mean I can see her saying she is but not doing it.
What else? I hit my wall once not in an annoying way when I felt ^the pangs of racism^ just being a poster online.
I also put up posters in the living area, thinking they'd like the arrangement. Just for fun, I mean why don't they just say to take them down? They probably liked them.
Other little things. I got upset at the way they were acting and then they just got mad when I asked normally.
People are also being g** to my dad and mom saying they deserve something for me. There is no real, normal way they could have been involved. That's too bad because everyone I meet now is like that. For a long time, no one would acknowledge me. My dad and I's relationship are not crap. We don't just touch each other every day nor every week.
Anyway, I've posted like this before.
Wut.
Why are people being g** and saying Ellen made her Twitter layout and connected to Facebook in sync with other big things to suggest I am a secondary person? What does that have to do with me.. I think Ellen is showcasing someone I knew and like beating to death that I made my nose small. I just wanted a strong-looking nose, but I don't know just how strong it is comparably now. I never tried to have a small nose that I can remember. I mean, I don't think her signs talk @ my nose! I'm just saying what I think she thinks @ like noses, like she likes Europeans with big noses? A lotta them aren't as white. Their noses are like a unicorn's horn for protection, the horn being for that literally.
As far as me butting in, yea, I'm online. I dunno @ you, but something funny @ just posting annoying fluff to Ellen. What else is piled up to say?
As far as me butting in, yea, I'm online. I dunno @ you, but something funny @ just posting annoying fluff to Ellen. What else is piled up to say?
Problema
I got insulted again..
Anyway, what do you think @? I liked Ellen's new logos. I don't believe she can say that it means more than 1 thing. Not that way.
Anyway, what do you think @? I liked Ellen's new logos. I don't believe she can say that it means more than 1 thing. Not that way.
Just Woke Up
What's with the weird loading! Sending me more dumb messages? What's a matta with you?
I forget my dream, now, annoying. I thought I woke up and heard faintly like a soft knock pounding, but I couldn't tell since I was mostly asleep. Then, I heard my dad say in a cool, sorta twisting voice @ death, "Hey, I'm 1st!" Like, he'd die before me. Not sure, on TV noticed people talking @ meds how psychiatric medicine actually makes you die sooner if you're older. At least a popular 1, which is called Risperdal. Most people take it. However, they are all only up to like these days whatever it looks like middle age, like 50.
I didn't know @ what I was hearing, mainly some grumble was real, though the washing and drying machines weren't on, a knock like someone was gonna come in, some like ghost of a kid girl with longer curly blonde hair.
Why do I keep getting insulting messages on how things load when I use the computer!
I forget my dream, now, annoying. I thought I woke up and heard faintly like a soft knock pounding, but I couldn't tell since I was mostly asleep. Then, I heard my dad say in a cool, sorta twisting voice @ death, "Hey, I'm 1st!" Like, he'd die before me. Not sure, on TV noticed people talking @ meds how psychiatric medicine actually makes you die sooner if you're older. At least a popular 1, which is called Risperdal. Most people take it. However, they are all only up to like these days whatever it looks like middle age, like 50.
I didn't know @ what I was hearing, mainly some grumble was real, though the washing and drying machines weren't on, a knock like someone was gonna come in, some like ghost of a kid girl with longer curly blonde hair.
Why do I keep getting insulting messages on how things load when I use the computer!
Friday, August 30, 2013
Indigo Children
Hey, look at this, Ellen..
Indigo Children - born with an Indigo Aura, believed to have supernatural abilities and with parents I think with learning disabilities maybe often.. I'm guessing they are Generation X.
Indigo Children - born with an Indigo Aura, believed to have supernatural abilities and with parents I think with learning disabilities maybe often.. I'm guessing they are Generation X.
Off the Map
Ellen would be off the map to assume that I tried to do anything in the New Orleans area. I think I've observed..
By the Hour
Standing here, looking outta the corner a mah eye
I just wanted to say I do not at all appreciate tweens acting like I'm chopped liver. I never meant no harm. DUM DUMS
I just wanted to say I do not at all appreciate tweens acting like I'm chopped liver. I never meant no harm. DUM DUMS
The Sounds of Going Ons
My mom shoulda helped me get something to eat.
Otherwise, Ellen, I don't know, but from the sounds of the cars and things outside, I'd say you're sadly "cho**ed liv**."
Otherwise, Ellen, I don't know, but from the sounds of the cars and things outside, I'd say you're sadly "cho**ed liv**."
What do you think?
How do you feel @ Tim Burton knowing I am on pills and went to the psychiatric clinic|ward?
Losers .. Biggest Buncha Idiots
You put me on psychiatric medicine just to respond to my inner yearnings.
Outdated
What's the big deal? Judgers want to hone down things that don't need to be? Or they are particularly in with an in crowd.
Tweeked
I was thinking of personality types lately. I dunno how .. oh mapped out something. I am a Perceiver because that makes me an Action Seeker.
My Personality Type
I'm just cool. Well, let's see, everyone already has a bit of everything and changes, usually extraverted to introverted. I wanted to be a loud extravert, but I got kicked out.
Problema
If Ellen accepted me then the tweenies wouldn't have to UNaccept me. Why should I care @ them? I wanted to be like them!
Problema
If Ellen accepted me then the tweenies wouldn't have to UNaccept me. Why should I care @ them? I wanted to be like them!
Problema
If Ellen accepted me then the tweenies wouldn't have to UNaccept me. Why should I care @ them? I wanted to be like them!
Problema
If Ellen accepted me then the tweenies wouldn't have to UNaccept me. Why should I care @ them? I wanted to be like them!
Problema
If Ellen accepted me then the tweenies wouldn't have to UNaccept me. Why should I care @ them? I wanted to be like them!
Ooh wow
Little Ellen is from a big city area like New Orleans which has been said is bigger than NYC. (I'm having fun on my blog. Everything is Ellen.)
WTF?
Why would anyone deserve to mingle with Ellen DeGeneres .. she just says stuff to those people kinda like fluff it seems.
The Verdict 3|
All I can say is that people act like everyone is mean because they aren't that attractive and seem mad @ it, so seem bad.
The Eentsy Weensy Spider..
I wonder if those tweens would like to be in my place. I mean they laaiD (laid) it out.
Problema
Would you stop telling me stuff @ the way I think! God Dammit! What I meant was that I'm gonna fight you when you leak out your criticisms .. well mebbe not. I just saying I realized you were just farting @ my thinking. I didn't do anything to you, didn't say anything, didn't affect you with anything.
Um-
If it's to get it over with, I already wanted to meet Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres 1 day.
So, please inform me exactly where you think that puts you.
So, please inform me exactly where you think that puts you.
See
She doesn't understand me. She just keeps doing stuff for no reason. She's no fun, then. I want someone to not think I'm just a silly Early Boom offspring.
So
Why is Ellen digging into me? I am already convinced she was a bad person but not as bad as most people.
WHO CARES
I DON'T HAVE TO TALK LIKE ELLEN AND BE MEAN. SHE IS ACTING LIKE I'M SHIT. WHAT'S THE PROBLEM!
Help!
They're spreading their diarrhea on me in my room. And they won't stop. I don't feel as good @ my post. Who cares @ Ellen's posts, then?
Problema?
I guess Ellen isn't from New Orleans nor the area, anymore. She can't hold it in like I do. Most anyone can't. So, she has to admit that.
Shit
Oh, click on the wall and shit me your shit.
I wasn't allowed to be how I wanted else I'd have pretty gold platinum hair and crystally sea colored eyes. I can't do that, now, so I dye it. I'm not sure what I'll do after.
I'm cooler than your shit kids, anyway. Their just Italian tubes.
I wasn't allowed to be how I wanted else I'd have pretty gold platinum hair and crystally sea colored eyes. I can't do that, now, so I dye it. I'm not sure what I'll do after.
I'm cooler than your shit kids, anyway. Their just Italian tubes.
Problema?
I guess Ellen isn't from New Orleans nor the area, anymore. She can't hold it in like I do. Most anyone can't. So, she has to admit that.
Ha Ha
So wasn't that the kids's wish that I can't just be close to Ellen and not be closer than before to my parents?? What kind of manners is that? You wish Ellen and your mom were 1 thing? I've already done that. That kind of thing.
Problemas
Well, this is what I found out. I watched Chris Matthews, who's been on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." Everyone is so supportive. I was watching a Tampa officer get tackled from the back of his chair then him being interviewed, bLac K. Anyway, the narrator reminded me of my interest in the human body, seemed to make me smart, rubbed off. He said something @ in the end it's death.
Literally, I thought Ellen was telling me I was a 1950 s****. It seems she thinks she's boss and slides in threads @ like if I have someone worse than my mom as my mom, basically, but like someone who maybe isn't my favorite. I just told of what I knew of other than my own mom, don't want just any Chinese-Indonesian. Her sister is intellectual, piano and glasses, Indonesian husband and lives with mom and eats KFC.. I would be ahead racially, hope that lady whose body model I saw gets an equal husband, probably like Orla Fallon, though. My parents just seem in the moment.
Anyway, after that, I thought @ how Ellen insulted me thinking of Ginny because of the conspiracy of a 1 Nell Burton.. I was sad that it would be taken into account of how safe she really is out there but in a more blunt ^message^. So, I was like, well, yea, Ginny got winded out of who she was. She is selfish in class for fun in some way.. She makes me feel bad, confuses me that staying in the hospital is the only way to communicate, got hurt both times. My stomach bloated, 3 times!
Anyway, here's my disclaimer: this is not a good thing. Not much of a punch line. I know people have always liked me. When I grew up, we were considered like with an identity from Heaven and we don't know what traits of our parents we will have nor with whom all we can develop. What else? So, I am like a trap, and then people say well your friends don't think they're Chinese and the most white so let's play around with that. I've had such miserable times, but thanks Christ Matthew and I'm well to watch TV. I need people in my life, like everyone, and I'm at crisis point. I may watch "Ghost Adventures," which reminds me of a time past. The Comedy show I like. So.. I learned they can't finish all thoughts. Yea, there was a lady who was really with the program in stereotype, a light black. I learned that her generation, born @ 1970, gets attacked whereas people say the wants of someone born @ 1960 mean something. It's very true. I don't mind Ellen making it seem like she's channeled like a person of her age. Because she's not, she's not really in the boat. I'm so serious @ this, now.. I am not so much trying to submit to brats born @ 1957-1961 to be specific.. but more to be of their quality, and I know more about eating apparently. I found cholesterol pills cause diabetes. I quit them long ago and refuse treatment for diabetes. I forget the good 1, but it starts with a c, Cervex? I need a little tablet from CVS when I get my money..Sunday. Why is it all labeled as ^the^ parents being from @ that time? I don't want to be labeled falsely. You already know what traits I got. Why was Ellen playing around? She is like getting away with just hurting me. Not sure why I said just, but it's not really all she seems to me. I don't mean it sarcastically..maybe someone knows why. Why is my dad not giving me personal space? I want to be close to Ellen. Why make me do something that I never wanted to do with my dad? It's very sensitive to me. I mean, that's all you talk @. What if I like the dads that are younger! Then, that's what I like. You don't go ask my dad. Or else eye color doesn't mean anything. Ugh! This is so annoying! Yes, I am born in 1986. And what @ my mom being a pretty Mongoloid? Maybe, I have some special bond that you're severing that I don't want severed. She is not like me, but I still think that it's good not to give me a bad relationship with her. There are lots of things to go through with that, but I lack the insight but wanna try. See, if you take her away to do something good, like discipline, that's in the right spirit. I just want the relationship to be right like with anyone as it's always been. Why is Ellen doing this? Is she? Whoever is, why? Ellen would have 1 reason, but I mean Tim Burton stopped posting online 1st. I can kinda see it, now. Well, I'll go post this. xp
Literally, I thought Ellen was telling me I was a 1950 s****. It seems she thinks she's boss and slides in threads @ like if I have someone worse than my mom as my mom, basically, but like someone who maybe isn't my favorite. I just told of what I knew of other than my own mom, don't want just any Chinese-Indonesian. Her sister is intellectual, piano and glasses, Indonesian husband and lives with mom and eats KFC.. I would be ahead racially, hope that lady whose body model I saw gets an equal husband, probably like Orla Fallon, though. My parents just seem in the moment.
Anyway, after that, I thought @ how Ellen insulted me thinking of Ginny because of the conspiracy of a 1 Nell Burton.. I was sad that it would be taken into account of how safe she really is out there but in a more blunt ^message^. So, I was like, well, yea, Ginny got winded out of who she was. She is selfish in class for fun in some way.. She makes me feel bad, confuses me that staying in the hospital is the only way to communicate, got hurt both times. My stomach bloated, 3 times!
Anyway, here's my disclaimer: this is not a good thing. Not much of a punch line. I know people have always liked me. When I grew up, we were considered like with an identity from Heaven and we don't know what traits of our parents we will have nor with whom all we can develop. What else? So, I am like a trap, and then people say well your friends don't think they're Chinese and the most white so let's play around with that. I've had such miserable times, but thanks Christ Matthew and I'm well to watch TV. I need people in my life, like everyone, and I'm at crisis point. I may watch "Ghost Adventures," which reminds me of a time past. The Comedy show I like. So.. I learned they can't finish all thoughts. Yea, there was a lady who was really with the program in stereotype, a light black. I learned that her generation, born @ 1970, gets attacked whereas people say the wants of someone born @ 1960 mean something. It's very true. I don't mind Ellen making it seem like she's channeled like a person of her age. Because she's not, she's not really in the boat. I'm so serious @ this, now.. I am not so much trying to submit to brats born @ 1957-1961 to be specific.. but more to be of their quality, and I know more about eating apparently. I found cholesterol pills cause diabetes. I quit them long ago and refuse treatment for diabetes. I forget the good 1, but it starts with a c, Cervex? I need a little tablet from CVS when I get my money..Sunday. Why is it all labeled as ^the^ parents being from @ that time? I don't want to be labeled falsely. You already know what traits I got. Why was Ellen playing around? She is like getting away with just hurting me. Not sure why I said just, but it's not really all she seems to me. I don't mean it sarcastically..maybe someone knows why. Why is my dad not giving me personal space? I want to be close to Ellen. Why make me do something that I never wanted to do with my dad? It's very sensitive to me. I mean, that's all you talk @. What if I like the dads that are younger! Then, that's what I like. You don't go ask my dad. Or else eye color doesn't mean anything. Ugh! This is so annoying! Yes, I am born in 1986. And what @ my mom being a pretty Mongoloid? Maybe, I have some special bond that you're severing that I don't want severed. She is not like me, but I still think that it's good not to give me a bad relationship with her. There are lots of things to go through with that, but I lack the insight but wanna try. See, if you take her away to do something good, like discipline, that's in the right spirit. I just want the relationship to be right like with anyone as it's always been. Why is Ellen doing this? Is she? Whoever is, why? Ellen would have 1 reason, but I mean Tim Burton stopped posting online 1st. I can kinda see it, now. Well, I'll go post this. xp
Upset
If Ellen judges me by my parents's age, I mean I know that's just the bump after the gate door, but I mean.. no. I don't find her ways of being more self-centered particularly good-feeling. I wanna go home to Pennn syl vania.
Upset
If Ellen judges me by my parents's age, I mean I know that's just the bump after the gate door, but I mean.. no. I don't find her ways of being more self-centered particularly good-feeling. I wanna go home to Pennn syl vania.
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