When!?

When's my next big break?  I had a good last summer.

Sorry if

I've bothered Chloe Moretz..like in attitude, I guess, on my blogs.

Me as the Talk Show Host

Okay, I walk onto the stage in a 90s leather coat.

Not So Fun

I mean, I'm upset @ things and then the solution is like the noises in my room.

Problema

These noises, people, keep making up stuff.

Wondering

Do you ever get ideas that just pop up and you didn't do it?  I mean, like not even some kind of reaction.  That happens all the time to me.  I'm trying to improve the situation.

WAH (WHY)

Why am I supposedly incompetent since Tim Burton and Johnny Depp?  I was sorta like Ellen DeGeneres, in some life.

You don't know . what I know

You know what I know about Johnny Depp?  He was like battling over things quickly in micro-actions just because he's from Florida.  He thinks everything's .. the world does .. is a "1 2" or a battle, where you really quickly rehash the same thing over and over until you're out and without any rendering services.

OK

I'm gonna lie down and listen to music.

Problema

If I'm bad when I'm sorry, I dunno what you want in life.

TV

I was watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I should go to bed.

I really don't understand

why everyone acts like I did something wrong but won't tell me and stop.

Worried

I don't like these episodes.  I can't just delete whole blogs.

O BOY O BOY

It's TIMMY: link

Well, I guess I'll lay off and stick to warding off the noises in my room!  What a pleasant surprise!  Where's the kids?

I will not put up with this.

Tim Burton thinking he has to give in and say he's stupid because other people are NOT Tim.  We have the world, too.  It was nice for others before.

Attacked

They won't stop.  No 1 gives a damn @ Nell Burton.  They wanna make Ellen weak, Tim.  What do you want to do to h**?

Problema

Chloe Moretz has issues, thinks she has to be stronger than me.  We already seee "what."  She's mean to me because of the N word thing.

Problema

I can't do anything, not even be friendly, nor take care of myself.  Who gives a fuck @ parents?

WUT.

Now, they have "Kate Bush" disturbing me.  I like ELLEN, you can't take her away!

Problema

I found my dad set off the whole town to think of a washing machine to my brother.  I know they went in and did something when I came back.  The classes were too hard, I wasn't prepared from the NEW ORLEANS area..

My dad is a liar and a cheat.  I just went and made sure he wouldn't do anything.  I can say whatever I want.  I don't give a damn @ anyone else.

"Food for Thought"

What if you said 1 person deserved something another person was supposed to have, like being a child celeb?

WUT.

I thought I said Tim Burton did something, but I still like him.

Disrespect

People are disrespectful to certain people.

WUT.

WHAT'S GOING ON?  YOU THINK YOU'RE SOMETHING CONTROLLING HOW THE COMPUTER LOADS?

NOW WHAT

Another message from my dad and a disgusting noise click in my room from supposedly Kate Bush?  WTF @ that?  I thought I was talking @ Ellen.  I like her, too!

Problema

They won't quit!!  I feel punished with Ellen for saying something @ Tim Burton HE DID WRONG LOOK WHAT YOUR PROBLEM  }8|

Look now it's @ that boy in England.  I'm not your GODDAMN secretary.

I'm getting veins in my hand.

Mobile

Problema

I don't see my dad butting in on anyone else!  STUPID

You know what

I am more powerful than any of you.  Let's find out.

Problema

What was that?  You're just being racist when I make a point and literally hurt me.  My dad said, "I did it to a beer."  Like in his cough I heard that.  What if I think of that, they do that so I think of something when I see it.  You can't hurt me you racist for saying the N word and it was part of the experiment.

Another Problem

I'm still picking up after others's shit when I've already offered as much I as I could|should|would to help.

People in public are so stupid.

They're an unfortunate herd of animals led by schizos.

My Be..lief!

You should not hurt anyone because you probably were too lazy or sorry to say stupid to do what you were supposed to and had to do cuz you're a stupid person but I hope not aha ha ha..  You ain't innocent.  Not talking @ Ellen.

I should quickly and fully apologize.

Sorry to Ginny for my sarcastic thoughts if you haven't balanced them out..etc.. am tired too kinda need exercise, to figure out how I'm gonna get healthy.  I mean I don't really work out that long, unless it's jogging.

Something Else @ Me Hard to Understand

I was so mad at the clicks bothering me.  I just felt everyone was crazy and mean and said I was worthless if I wanted it to stop.  I posted it online hoping for help!  I did get help from my last blogs.  Thigns just changed for me.  I am a bit nicer in some ways.  I tried to say like why do you think it's so-and-so, really.  I was so mad, just wanted it up.

Something Else

I do m********* to things I don't like to talk @.  I don't like to and try not to, but sometimes I mean I just do it.  I used to feel a lot when I thought @ stuff like that without m********ing.

Can I be trusted?

I probably am just sucking up.

Let me explain myself.  Tim Burton and Johnny Depp came out, the world went crazy..and RACIST outright RACIST all the chances I ever percieved were shit!

What I Found

I found out something interesting.  People sing to prove they can sing, whereas I do it to express myself like acting.

Twitter

What I Am

lying sick on my sofa drinking healing tea

Problema

And stop threatening to hurt people I know.  Like waving a g** in front of me.

Problema

Why did my mom just rub in I can't talk to the real Ellen DeGeneres?..  Why do you all all day spit out insults?  How will I get a job and have a life.  My private life.  What happens then?

Problema

You all just act like shit for my shit peers.  Not talking to anyone personally, in particular, ..  Just the world, maybe because of Tim Burton.  He cares about the shit, I guess.  Not a nice word, but sometimes it's funny, if you don't take it too far.  Sorry..  I mean come on, you're all like always giving some secret handshake like you're some person in a leather jacket from the 1950s.  Don't necessarily just all stop, just sayin'.  What is it @ these .. whatever .. peers?  Why is that their wet d****?  Or what, not that?  Why is it their fantasy?  Why do it on me, I always dreaded this..you know a feeling I have|had.

Why did my dad just say..

.."she's not on on Ellen DeGeneres?"  I watch her show.

I was just sitting in my room thinking @ how they leave out whine slushy samples unattended at a wine shop that moved away from the bubble gum machine after I asked for change.

What just cuz my mom was being mean?  Also, I wasn't dressed, was TIRED, and didn't really wanna confront with my dad.. why'd he just say that?  That's crazy.  He was supposed to stop.  Wut, you wanna see mydad undressed?  I mean, he's not naked.

Tea

I had some regular tea from a grocery store.

Kick Me Off~

Twitter!  I keep checking.  I don't know enough people, though.  It's not always fun to look at an old friend's and wonder who's talking to them.  :(

Pregunta

If 1 could have kids and it's a sign of growing up, why would you think it's bad if you're an active human being and a good parent?  I know it's @ the way the world is, too.  I mean, it's special, though you could say it's a sign of responsibility.  I was thinking, why not have kids when you're like 18, 19, 20?  I know Late Boomers had them later.

O, and something I forgot to say

I do not ever do anything Asian so do not do anything Asian to anyone.  I feel it is sorta a sickness, though, at the moment and other times.  I don't look Asian!  I'd even say I don't like to be Asian but am nice to Asians.

Why did I get the message I did something to Ellen when I think she did something to me though I feel she is I mean like everyone thinks fun and nice.. like I thought about my life being an experiment and just said I think she's done stuff anyway..

I just got the message I was an Asian at home watching thee Ellen who acts like she's Jewish just because of her mom's maiden name.  I know, it's disappointing, but it's also happy of course.  It is stressful to deal with her actually I think wallowing in self-pity and trying to get attention for it.  No, anyway, I am not an Asian.  I just am fatter than before, and people didn't treat me like I was white.  I didn't do anything.  I know the world did it, made white people white.  Why make fun of them?  They just wanna keep precious secrets.

Why are you all suddenly freaking out @ me?  Don't put Asian in MY life.  I want white.  Freakish!

Problema

My mom is being an animal in the kitchen sending me messages with how the dishes sound!  She thinks she's some other 1/2 Asian's mom who doesn't have a good influence on her, is in treatment mentally.

However, she relayed it was Ellen.

I DON'T LIKE THAT.  That is so incredibly stupid.  What was that, blinked the screen?  This is *beep*!  It can't be her, anyway.  Why, that's *beep*!  It's bad, whatever!!  If you did it and I just found out I'm not going to accept it.., doing bullshit for *beep* people.  I was trying to sleep.

I just heard a stupid noise in my room someone planted there.  This is ruining my life.

There, I hope that message is okay.  What does anyone think!  They just don't wanna benefit me.  No one talks to me directly in real life.

Ah, I'm tired and can't think.  This is too much to sieve through, I guess.  Can't read another word.  :(

I just don't like this nonsense, saying my mom is not special to me, saying she ^transformed^ and is into someone who just sorta grabbed her like that's even okay.

Is this getting back at a few other things you don't like I may have done?  And what praytell has happened to my brain?

Did you see the girl's reaction?  She just thinks, "Oh..that's mine."  Do I have to tell you what this means?  It's okay for her to have a nice relationship with my mom, but this is just nonsense to play around like this acting harsh and like my mom's better than me and is changing and I'm not good enough for her and someone else is, what I think is the nature of this.

Why do you keep acting like I'm mean?  I keep saying that, but the only thing that happens is people playing mean with me and other people in the end not even knowing what to think or care about.  People lik me for staying in line.  They don't like hyperactive freaks permeating the known world.

So, yes, I always like people getting close to my mom, but why bump me off?  You can sit in front of me and sing that your mom is like the great Ellen DeGeneres, and I wouldn't be able to get upset.  But when you insult me with something and act weird and nasty, that's not okay.  In fact, I do see tweens telling me that "their mom" is cool, and actually that's something I tend to wanna chase after.  However, you should think of Ellen as a mom.  Just don't like rub it in.  You can think anything looks motherly, even an old dog.  I mean that some people don't want it to be rubbed in, perhaps, so don't say I told you to go coocoo or something..

So..

What is it?  Why are you acting nasty like my mom replaced me rather than added someone in her life?  She actually hasn't seen her.  Just trying to sound mean??

Okay..so - well, I tried to write up a good thing @ my feelings.  What now, I think @ punishment when you made me uncomfortable?  Whoever did it..  Well, my mom just made me sound upset.  It kinda ruined my weekend.  I wasn't dressed.  I can't seem to find the right kinda workout, the right food at home sometimes or no food I like a lot.  Anyway, I think there was something up for her, too, but I dunno.  I tried to kinda not blow up, but then I was kinda sad and just said whatever I said, don't remember exactly.  This is getting to be a long post and I need to lie down or do something else or even you know just post @ something else.  :)  It's good for you to post your feelings..

Another Aside

I can just see Ellen DeGeneres lighting up to Chloe Moretz for just being able to use her brain, like she's the perfect generation age for a child of someone in her regime.

Powerful and Stressed

Kids today have such a high level of hyperactive playing smart ways.  I am so relaxed watching someone like Jessie Klein and imagined her with Ellen DeGeneres.  It was so peaceful.  What's with all the hyperactive fans?

So

I just put 1 song on there, not all that great.

Update

I'm making a best of me singing playlist!

Disney

October when it's cool says my mom - a Florida pass anytime I want

Ugh

I think I have a temper.  I cleaned up in my room, need a coat stand since my old 1 broke.

Edit

I added another link, the very best of me pictures..on Flickr!

Post

You're telling me what I said.

Problema

Why don't you do something, instead?  My ancestors came a long time back from a European-influenced culture and caught on but are still stuck up @ their race being 2nd class.

I will not

mingle to be Asian.  I didn't do anything.  My mom was being creepy.

Problema

My mom just came home today and scared and attacked me, I mean-a sTARED

She looked like some other 1/2 Asian and looked at me differently.  Whose idea is it to have my mom be someone else's mom, INSTEAD.  I am biologically built very much like her because I like it and I was in her w*** from c*********.  I wantedwhatIwanted-

Wale! (Well)

I don't think I want any magazines..TV shows with people.  Oh, just Astro Girl off the shelf.

Guess

I don't want a magazine.

he HE

I have a jumping blanket!

I found

a new magazine!  .7

Did I mention

growing my hair back in but getting sea contacts-

Uh Oh

Isn't it weird when you see Tim Burton it's cool?  Maybe, he's just different, different from me of course.  :]

Twitter

I edited my profile.

Facebook

Twitter

What you think you are!

What kind of intelligence do any of you possess?

I said

YOU were mean to me.  YOU were looking @ me and not letting me talk.. not yourself, no 1's gonna dig up you for feeling sorry for oneself.

So

I said I don't care if you even done this beFORE!

Why not

just h*** the person in charge?

Problema

I can say what I want.  I wasn't saying anything wrong.  Stop hurting me.

*BEEP*

STOP

Stop saying I'm bad all day.  Go to HELL

PROBLEMA

Ellen we don't care I don't want you k***ing me.  My mom is now sweeping dead bugs.  I'm good, I don't do anything wrong.  This is cheap, stupid, and worthless.  I CLEAN after dead bugs.  I don't know what shithole you popped your head outta, not talking to Ellen..

Problema

You're even acting like it's not 1 of those big stupid things why you're utterly seemingly worthless.  No, I'm not talking @ any 1 person, any human, nor anything like that totally.

Problema

My mom just kept going.

Any plea of yours to sound good-

Problema

What if I just found out Ellen did these problems, told my mom to do something.  Why you coming back?  Where'd my mom go, she kept testing me.  Not sure what happened but I sure as Hell don't care!

Well

I wish I had somewhere to go and something to do.

Food

I'm cooking again!  Looking up a recipe|s.

Problema

Does Chloe Moretz want me to stop following her on Twitter?  That's mean, I don't think she does.  People think I'll find someone else better for me but I dunno, I mean yea she is a unique person but need someone to talk with or follow.

Problema

So, I guess with me the problem was I am from Southern U.S.A.  With other people it's a different thing, like someone else is also Southern.  I didn't impose anything.

Pregunta

Why wasn't Chloe Moretz in the new Tim Burton movie?  Looks like it's for her.

Problema

I got another nasty message, that I should m********* to shit.  WHAT IS ALL YOUR PROBLEMS.  Ellen help, no one is nice to me.

O

They're m********ing me calling me not white and acting like I'm in hysteria as an Asian.  I DO NOT LIKE TO BE ASIAN IN AN ASIAN WAY.  You know that way where they don't conform to their wishes to be white.

THIS IS SHIT

You're not even nice to people who are mean to me.

They keep calling me not white stuff!

Stop m********ing me?

Problema

Like, she just grew up and muses on others not making themselves happy but with me hurts me.  If she was the 1 who hit me.  The girl did have a boy cut.

Problema

Why does Ellen not think @ like people with real problems.. like what if she wanted me to get hit?  I think people think it's funny..

So..

You can't hit me just because you take care of me.

Problema

It's like constantly awake, and I know no one cares.  What if it was done on purpose?  I could put you in prison.

Problema

Now, my head is causing me nonstop stress.  It's a feeling you get when you haven't eaten, exercised, nor taken a shower.  It's where I was hit..

Edit

I rearranged them.

New Photo Set!

Problema

Why won't you pathetic cases even just shut up?  Orlando just keeps shitting.  You're the 1 people wanna get.

YOU

I am not gonna live being called a nigger just because of you, Tim Burton.  They have to do it just in case.  I wonder if there even is a nigger.

Am I not seeing things

I had to edit my profile 1 of the things I support.

Update

New Info. on Me

Races: White
Ethnicities|Heritages (?) : Dutch, French

So

Ellen is smart and doesn't have too many racial problems..

Hair and Eyes

I am getting blue-green contacts, but I'm gonna go back to my natural colors and see.

Issues

I did encourage my dad to meet people, but I mean he also likes me.

Problema

I was nice to my friends.  They're not nice to me.  I did get mad but not mean.

Upset

Ellen is being presented as a loon who emotionally holds nothing in..

Edit

Sorry, I meant something else, like cover image and pictures @ the world.

Lingering Turmoil

Is it unspeakable to say Ellen's logos have been more self-centered?  How do you feel about that?  I mean, it's @ us.  MySpace, which isn't as popular and doesn't have the groups like we like for the movies.

There's nothing wrong, but people make it mean different things.  If that were true, I mean, I'd be doing something else differently..

What I Want to Do

I want to clean and rearrange my room.  My dad's gonna help me with backing up my computer with excessive files.

Not Sure What to Do

I want some time by myself and just finished breakfast.  The TV was good, not much chance to respond.

There are 2 things~ going around.  1 of the 1s is the way Ginny acts like I'm not good enough for her, when all you can say is she is ***y.  You can accredit her skills, but you can also do that with mine.  You just can't say that I give people *** like that.  I dunno, I mean, it's not like no person can or whatever a person can't..  So ..  What else, Ellen wants to be #1 now, well I dunno I mean there are people out there you don't even know what you're talking about making a contest on who's worth it, who should do what.  You know, from her show, she has a writer who works hard.  Her interviewer is cute and very nice.  Um, I think you don't -have- to do just that.  I'm nice, too, not just like all about smiling and saying hi and not expressing anything else, not that she doesn't at all..  :|  What a happy girl.  She found a good person for that job!  That is so cute!  She does seem smart, I mean, you know what I mean..

Hey, guess what?

I just watched MSNBC.  It was pretty good.  Live world news, even a Muslim over.  There's another world show I saw in the mental clinic where they acted like an anchor was the Russian President.

Watcha Think

I already said what I said.  You like Ellen because she is ***y and comforting.  No one seems to even want to take a 1st step and talk to me.  Anyway, her growing up?  You'd have liked me then, you know when I was growing up!

Wut.

You all are just mean to me all the time but encourage others who are successful.

Problema

They're just fighting me.  I'm gonna redo my room, then you can step into it and see what noises there are, even the garage door during the day.  Then, there's the computer loading in certain times.

Wale! (Well)

I like myself better than Ellen.

Problema

What a stupid loser you'd be not to understand this.. I think I was more likeable than Ellen DeGeneres until I watched her show.  You just encourage her nose.

Wut.

Why are you acting like Ellen is a baby and sucking up to my dad?  My dad is not that kind of person you barge in and think it's Tim Burton and Saturday Night Live like some kinda weird food you mix together but I don't mean anything weird in a certain way.

Problema

I just got a threat, I just posted something important.  What was that!  "Do you want me to do a plie in your room?"  You don't have any right to hit me!  I got hit in the head, and Ellen might be involved.  Stop punishing me, I didn't do nothing.  I have a right to say *beep* you, go *beep*.  I don't say it, anymore, probably lost its affect.  Didn't want to.  I kept hearing noises in my room.  I still do.  I know other people do, too, not sure if they said so, yet.  I don't wanna sit here and sift through shit for Ellen.  I'm going to school, but 1st I wanted to get in the Disney parade.  I need to get in shape.  They want us too thin.  They have these slightly happy young girls.  I don't mean to threaten something weird @ college!  I don't wanna sit here saying, "Stop acting like Ellen," all thru the day each day.  Wow, what if they do it more, just because of how I say things?  It's work to say things a certain way.  Hey, I need breakfast.  Also, why do you think I should be punished?  If Ellen had a kid, the kid would be smothered in the world.  I'm just saying.

Problema

This wasn't like this before.  I just kinda have to forget @ Tim Burton.  I mean, I'll follow him online, I'll still be a fan really.  I just have to get rid of these problems, somehow.  I am surrounded, so I can't seem to do what I like.

Problema

So, why am I getting resounding messages from Ellen?  You can't be mean to me and rub in with my dad just to annoy me?  I thought you mattered! and were famous.  It's @ ME, not my parents.  They aren't online nor watching the show.  Everything I tangibly do seems to be treated like shit.  Ellen is a racist.  She also wallows in her own racial makeup.  No offense, wallower.  Ellen is nice to people, but then you get those after-messages.  I just mean I'm judging if she uses racism, not saying otherwise she's just a bad person.  Most people -are- racist.

Hey

You're posting shit in the style of Ellen in a twisted way!  I thought I was ^alone^.  Word Captchas.

Problemas

I don't think anyone has a right to suggest I did something wrong and make some earth shattering decision because of it, I mean things like the signs, though.  :|

People are mean to me since I failed college because I was tired from losing sleep for homework a lot of my later life or more.  Then, I was using store cards, and my parents refused to pay, anymore, not even with allowance for it, like with the college bill I thought I could postpone since they were the 1s that kicked me out of my major for no reason.

My mom was acting like I was bad to sleep without socks because Ellen was punishing me, which I don't think she was.  If she was, I mean I can see her saying she is but not doing it.

What else?  I hit my wall once not in an annoying way when I felt ^the pangs of racism^ just being a poster online.

I also put up posters in the living area, thinking they'd like the arrangement.  Just for fun, I mean why don't they just say to take them down?  They probably liked them.

Other little things.  I got upset at the way they were acting and then they just got mad when I asked normally.

People are also being g** to my dad and mom saying they deserve something for me.  There is no real, normal way they could have been involved.  That's too bad because everyone I meet now is like that.  For a long time, no one would acknowledge me.  My dad and I's relationship are not crap.  We don't just touch each other every day nor every week.

Anyway, I've posted like this before.

Twitter

Wut.

Why are people being g** and saying Ellen made her Twitter layout and connected to Facebook in sync with other big things to suggest I am a secondary person?  What does that have to do with me.. I think Ellen is showcasing someone I knew and like beating to death that I made my nose small.  I just wanted a strong-looking nose, but I don't know just how strong it is comparably now.  I never tried to have a small nose that I can remember.  I mean, I don't think her signs talk @ my nose!  I'm just saying what I think she thinks @ like noses, like she likes Europeans with big noses?  A lotta them aren't as white.  Their noses are like a unicorn's horn for protection, the horn being for that literally.

As far as me butting in, yea, I'm online.  I dunno @ you, but something funny @ just posting annoying fluff to Ellen.  What else is piled up to say?

Problema

I got insulted again..

Anyway, what do you think @?  I liked Ellen's new logos.  I don't believe she can say that it means more than 1 thing.  Not that way.

Just Woke Up

What's with the weird loading!  Sending me more dumb messages?  What's a matta with you?

I forget my dream, now, annoying.  I thought I woke up and heard faintly like a soft knock pounding, but I couldn't tell since I was mostly asleep.  Then, I heard my dad say in a cool, sorta twisting voice @ death, "Hey, I'm 1st!"  Like, he'd die before me.  Not sure, on TV noticed people talking @ meds how psychiatric medicine actually makes you die sooner if you're older.  At least a popular 1, which is called Risperdal.  Most people take it.  However, they are all only up to like these days whatever it looks like middle age, like 50.

I didn't know @ what I was hearing, mainly some grumble was real, though the washing and drying machines weren't on, a knock like someone was gonna come in, some like ghost of a kid girl with longer curly blonde hair.

Why do I keep getting insulting messages on how things load when I use the computer!

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